good bye to forever (standard:poetry, 423 words)
Author: fallen	Added: Sep 14 2000	Views/Reads: 4158/2117	Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes)
the pain of losing a child

People file by me... 

surround me with their caring arms and hug me... 

I look at these familiar strangers... 

faces that I know 

Friends that should be recognized... 

but my mind seems paralyzied 

stuck on one fervent cry 

WHY!!! WHY!!! WHY!! 

Heartfelt words seem hollow as they echo in my head.. 

"We are so sorry." 

"You are in our prayers." 

"Stay strong" 

"He is in God's arms now." 

I want to scream to them... 

"WHAT GOOD ARE YOUR WORDS... 

CAN'T YOU SEE MY BABY IS DEAD!?!?" 

instead I silently nod my head. 

A man in a dark suit stands and begins to speak 

of God and Heaven and Hope. 

I see his lips moving 

but I can't make out what he is saying? 

I concentrate and listen. 

All I hear is the sound of laughter... 

and peekaboo... 

my baby boy is playing. 

And I hear him at 5 telling me all about his first day of school.. 

And I hear him at 8 crying over a skinned knee... 

And I hear him at 10 saying.."MOM stop babying me!" 

I smile as the memories unfold. 

Quickly the smile fades. 

He is 15 and the voice I hear has turned cold. 

The voice of a child that thinks he is a man... 

A voice filled with anger and rage.. 

Friends try to counsel and console me. 

They tell me this is just a stage. 

Hot tears burn my cheeks 

as the bitter memory of raised voices and raised fists flood my soul. 

I would of chose my words more carefully.. 


Click here to read the rest of this story (48 more lines)