Blackness (standard:drama, 430 words)
Author: Lori	Added: May 06 2004	Views/Reads: 3475/0	Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes)
A story of a character afraid to face her parents being sick. Yes, I know it's a jumble of raw emotions! It's what's racing through her head thinking about it, coming to terms with it. Feedback is welcome.

Blackness 

By: cowgirl_11 

The blackness has descended, my soul's breaking! I don't know what I can
do to help. I don't know how to change it. I'm worried about what's 
going to happen. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. Help 
me! Save me! Release me! 

The blackness is filling my soul. I can't get a grasp on life. I can't
see anything but the pain. My heart bleeds; my soul cries out, my body 
is tired! This is just the beginning! 

All I see is black, there's no light. I look around to try and find it
it's impossible. I can't find a way out of this one. I can't run from 
it either, no matter how bad I want too. I must face this thing! I must 
be strong! I want to curl up and cry! 

My world is crumbling around me! She went to the doctor Friday, five
days ago. They said it wasn't bad, it wasn't supposed to scare us. They 
called yesterday, said they found something abnormal. I don't know what 
that means! I'm not strong enough to deal with this! I can't face both 
of them being sick! 

Daddy's already sick, close to dying even. The surgery is too risky it
could kill him. If the blood stops flowing to his brain, he'll be dead. 
I can't lose him; I've already lost one! He can't leave this world he's 
our rock. I don't know what I would do without him! I don't know who to 
go to when I fall! I'm his little girl! 

Mother and I had the fight the other day. I'm sorry for the things I've
said. I'm sorry I can't feel anything for her I‘m too scared. Oh God, I 
pray she isn't as sick as we think. It has to be something else! 

I can't live without my mother. I can't go on with life. Oh God, please
help me! Oh Father, save me! Oh Jesus, release me! I can't do this; I'm 
not strong enough! I can't bear the weight of not knowing. I can't bear 
the weight of knowing. 

I'll survive this; it's not going to beat me. If it's Colon Cancer,
she'll beat it. She's beat cancer before she can do it again. With my 
help, my love, she can do this. With your help sweet Jesus, I will be 
strong enough to do this! With Your love, I can face this! With your 
grace, there will be a light at the end of the tunnel! 

Sorry Mother for being so selfish! 


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