Untitled Rage... Caged Fury... Painful Hurt. (standard:poetry, 258 words)
Author: The St. John Lady	Added: Jan 28 2009	Views/Reads: 3114/0	Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes)
A poem written by me after one of the lowest moments in my life. In Nov 2007 I had reached the lowest ebb of depression and I tried to take my own life... This was written a few weeks after I came out of hospital.

Copyrighted to Nicky D Sarti 2009. 

I am hurt. I am angry. I am lost and I am lonely. I want help finding my
way. Need help finding my way! 

Here I sit this nice, kind, caring person. With heart of gold and
friendly nature. I give all to everyone, and rarely get anything back. 
But still I don't mind, still I give all that I have. No ulterior 
motives, no underlying reasons. Just because... 

But now the hurt and pain are rife. Now my heart is dying inside. I am
filled with a rage and anger I have never felt before. Ready to explode 
with a violent fury. The likes of which I have never seen or felt 
before. How did this happen and when did it change? Is this really me 
and how my life has changed? 

I feel wounded now and want to cry. I long for the time when my tears no
longer fall. I long for the day when I don't wake up wishing I were 
dead. Oh how I long for that day; and the day when I don't have to 
fight. My emotions are no longer my own. Were they ever mine in the 
first place? 

One moment I can be up; happy and glad. The next I am down; angry and
sad. Will I ever be free, will the pain ever stop? How can I fix these 
feelings inside of me? Will it really take my death for them to see; 
That all I ever need to be was me?


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