Messages From Dreams (standard:Inspirational stories, 436 words)
Author: Hope	Added: Mar 30 2006	Views/Reads: 3483/2	Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes)
My understanding of a certain dream...

Why did my heart not break but choose indifference instead of sadness? 

Maybe because I realize that nobody belongs to me and its better
something's end in truth then to carry on living a lie. 

Maybe Trust, Honesty and Loyalty are overrated? 

Who know better than me? 

I could love someone to death but still be in the arms of another, so
why do I cry if someone else does the same to me?? 

Now I realize it's a part of life and things happen. But that doesn't
mean the person loves me any less.A messed up part of me even 
understands that deception. I wouldn't even call it that anymore. It 
would be too harsh. It depends on the feelings and circumstances behind 
it. Maybe he was intoxicated, maybe it was just an urge... but if at 
the end of the day he still loves me and comes back to me... 

Is it okay? 

No, so why would I expect that back? Something has changed.... 

Does guilt drive me to being with that person? Does it open a whole new
world from there on?? 

Who am I deceiving? 

The person I love or myself?? 

All these years I have lived on confused philosophies; my own
preaching's and now I realize I need to unlearn everything and start 
afresh... suspicion and deception is only taking me to the places I 
fear most... 

When I am with someone I must not only give love but also my trust... I
need to put that wall down that causes disasters in my life... The 
self-destruct phase has to be forgotten. I need to trust... I don't 
want to put the sun block and feel the sun... I want the sun to touch 
my skin... to seep into my soul... 

Life is a risk and I know I am strong enough to take it... Now... 

I realize now that maybe I haven't been protecting myself but slowly
destroying my spirit bit by bit...Unknowingly hurting the ones I love 
most. Now the time has come to close that chapter of the rebellious 
little girl and have a little more faith in the universe and the people 
in my life at the moment... as I am the one who choose this time and 
these people to be in my life for a reason... 

So now I stand on the edge of highest cliff of my fears with my heart
thrashing in my chest... the sun shining down on me... I hear the water 
below me... I stretch my arms, close my eyes and with a smile on my 
face I step forward... 


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