You Left Me (standard:poetry, 743 words)
Author: Lori	Added: Oct 17 2007	Views/Reads: 2814/1871	Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes)
Another tribute poem to my father who left me 27 years ago Saturday.

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You left, for the last time, 

October 20,1980. 

The pain you suffer, 

ISN'T enough to cover, 

The pain I've lived, 

since that day. 

YOU LEFT ME! 

Why? 

I have prayed, 

these 27 years. 

I cry, 

for the pain, 

we've both suffered, 

at the hands of fate. 

I cry, 

for the love, 

which didn't get to bloom, 

and we didn't get to share. 

I cry, 

for the loss, 

of not a parent, 

but a hero. 

If in  my eyes only, 

you were that to me. 

I cry, 

for my children. 

Who have the same thing I do from you, 

the pictures of a vibrant man, 

with eyes which could look through a soul, 

a heart which was so gentle there were never any cross words, 

a soul so kind he turned to drugs to escape the pain of war. 

I cry, 

because, deep inside, 

I'm still a little girl, 

wanting your lap to crawl upon. 

I cry, 

because through everything, 

the only thing I remember is, 

YOU LEFT ME! 

Do I forgive you? 

Never, 

always, 

everyday, 

I forgive you. 

Am I sorry? 

Never, 

always, 

forever, 

I'm sorry for the way I feel and have felt. 

Do I miss you? 

Never, 

always, 

every minute of the day, 

every second of every hour, 

When I look into my children's eyes. 

Do I love you? 

No I can't, 

with my whole heart, 

my entire being. 

But, 

YOU LEFT ME! 

YOU LEFT ME! 

YOU LEFT ME! 

YOU 

LEFT 

ME! 

How? 

Why? 

Damn you, 

YOU LEFT ME! 

I hate you, 

for that. 

I love you, 

for that. 

I miss you, 

for that. 

I was suppose, 

to go see you today. 

I couldn't do it. 

Used every excuse, 

not to go. 

Not because I'm not strong enough, 

For you don't know how strong I can be. 

Not because of reasons I made up either. 

I could have gone and not batted an eye. 

But I couldn't do it. 

Didn't think I could handle it. 

Not this year, 

Maybe next, 

The one after, 

Maybe never again, 

Can I go to a place where you're not. 

The reason I can't go, 

Is because, 

YOU LEFT ME 

Here to rot, 

To cry, 

To mourn, 

To feel lost, 

To never feel loved, 

To never know love, 

But through all this, 

I NEVER LEFT YOU! 

YOU, 

I can't forget, 

Can't get over, 

Through the sexual, 

Physical, and, 

Emotional abuse, 

I looked for you, 

to rescue me. 

You weren't there. 

You had turned to rot, 

I heard you cry, 

Saw you mourn, 

You felt lost, 

You didn't feel love, 

You didn't know love, 

And through all this, 

YOU NEVER LEFT ME! 

I didn't see, 

Until recently, 

How you've never left me. 

Because all my life, 

You have lived inside of me. 

When I gave birth to my children, 

It was you who smiled the most. 

The day I got divorced, 

I heard you shout the loudest. 

You never left me, 

You might have left this earth, 

BUT NEVER DID YOU LEAVE ME! 

Daddy, I love you so much, 

Today, Yesterday, Tomorrow, and Forever, 

You will always be my hero. 

Tribute to my Dad who left me October 20, 1980 at the tender age of 31
years old. He may be gone, but he's NEVER been forgotten. I love you 
Daddy! Please be proud of me, today, yesterday, and for every day of my 
life. For there was no prouder moment, for me, than on October 28, 1970 
at 5:58 in the morning when I became YOUR daughter. I cherish you today 
as much as I did when you were alive. YOU are the reason I'm the strong 
woman I am today. 

© October 16, 2007 by Lori


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