the eagles will lead her home (standard:non fiction, 2336 words)
Author: silly_h_p	Added: Nov 07 2006	Views/Reads: 3215/2238	Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes)
This is a true story about my little sister and I and the wonderful relationship we shared until the unexpected happened and she was diagnosed with terminal cancer. This is my tribute to her and those who have or lost loved ones to cancer.

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clinic in Rochester ,Mn and get a second opinion by the best doctors 
dealing with cancer. So thats what we did. Shelly, her foster mother 
Joyce, and myself made the trip and what a trip it was. It was snowing 
and there were cars and trucks going in the ditches every where. you 
know I wouldnt do this for anybody but you joyce told her, with some 
skillfull driving and alot of luck we finally made it safely. It took 
two days of testing before we finally got to see a doctor who 
specalized in the type of cancer shelly had and there we sat in her 
little office on pins and needles waiting anxiously for her to tell us 
what the results were. Well she said I think your doctors that you have 
are doing exactally what i would be doing for your treatment she said 
.That was good news i thought but that isnt all of it I thought to 
myself, And I was right. Joyce said" well I need to know "she said and 
i am sorry but i need to know if we are looking at a time frame. Well I 
have seen people with this type of cancer last as little as a year she 
said but then i have also seen people last for as long as five years. 
My head started spinning, No No No No was all i could think of. How can 
this be fair? not even three years ago we buried our father at the age 
of sixty one of cancer. We lost our mother when shelly was only five 
years old, we have no living grandparents. No No No No why? why of all 
the people in this world would you take a person like her? she has 
three children that she is raising on her own with out any help from 
their fathers! why this person who is so full of life and adverture? No 
it cant be true. As we sat in that quiet little office room all of us 
in our own thoughts she sat there weeping. I dont know if I should just 
run screaming and crying" why "she said or if i should just lay down 
here and die now. On our way home she said I have three children at 
home who need there mother and i wont just give up they need there mom, 
And from that day forward that was her outlook on it all. I quit my 
job, left my husband and moved in with shelly, the kids, and our other 
sister leane after all she was going to need alot of help getting 
better. Leane was the bread winner , even though she hated leaving 
shelly everyday she knew that someone had to make the bills. I was the 
nurse slash housekeeper. I made all the  meals and took shelly to her 
doctor appointments and any other appointment she had and made sure she 
was taking all the medications she needed because she was going to get 
better, she had too I dont know what I would do with out my sister, my 
best friend? She ended up having a few surgery's but in the end it 
always just seemed to hurt her more then help her. Every day I sat 
there and watched my little sister grow weaker and thinner and there 
wasnt anything that I could do to help her. All the medications i would 
give her each day, the meals that i would cook for her it just wasnt 
helping, but I could never tell her any thing that wasnt positive 
because i felt that if she knew i was giving up then she would amd i 
just couldnt have that, I needed her here! Then one day six months 
later she was down to less the ninty eight pounds and no hope of 
getting better the doctor told her that she needed to make some 
choices. they could keep giving her the nutriants her body needed by 
the I V's she was on but that it really would only be feeding the 
cancer not herself any more. or she could try chemo again but that 
chances were that it would only make her sicker then what she was and 
that it wouldnt work anyway? she decided to wait until the week end was 
over before making the decision she said. Our brother and his family 
had come home from North Carolina to see her and she wanted to just 
enjoy the time with them and her family members who had come to visit 
her. Monday came and as I sat in the doctors office with her, my heart 
felt so heavy. It was so hard to sit there and hear her tell the doctor 
that her fight was over, that she just wanted to enjoy the last days on 
this earth with her children and not be sick!  I understand the doctor 
said and I agree with you he said. That was it? Why not tell her to 
fight? why not tell her that there was always hope? I was mad at him 
for telling her that but I was also feeling bad because I too didnt 
want to she her suffer any more then she already had. I layed in her 
bed that night with her and held her hand. Are you scared I asked her? 
"No" I am angry, angry with you and the others she said. Angry I asked 
her? Yes she said , angry that you are going to see my children 
graduate, get married, and have children. I am never going to see any 
of  that she said. You will I said to her, from heaven you will see all 
that go's on in your childrens lives, the good deeds they do the bad 
ones the smiles on there faces when there thinking about you and the 
tears when they're missing you more than ever.you will see it all and 
as long as we are making confessions I am angry with you also I said. I 
am so angry  that you are going to leave me and are going to go and see 
mom and dad and the others who have gone to hevan and not have a care 
in the world. I have to stay here and deal with the every day things 
like bills and everyday stress's and not having you here to share any 
of those things with. I wrote a letter to god and asked him if I could 
go with you because I cant stand to be here with out you for even one 
day! You cant come to heaven with me she said because then who would be 
here to take care of my children? they still need you here she said! 
Two days later shelly passed away in the middle of the night.But she 
wasnt alone, standing beside her was her foster mother joyce, leane and 
I. We took her back home to the reservation to lay her to rest. Our 
mother was buried there and thats were she wanted to be.We had decided 
that she came from her mothers womb and there she will be returned, and 
thats where we placed her ashes.As the men in our family were playing 
their ceremonial drums and singing, someone happened to looked up and 
there soaring above us were two bald eagles flying over head, taking 
her to her resting place and joining all the other loved who went 
before her.In the native american belief eagles are very sacred and 
hold high honers so it was wonderful to see not one but two lead her 
home.


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