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A cry for help to nobody (standard:romance, 6706 words) | |||
Author: ebony | Added: Dec 25 2005 | Views/Reads: 3545/2460 | Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes) |
it about a girl in 9th grade who meets a guy and he likes her, so they become friends. but when they go on a trip, thing get bad... | |||
Click here to read the first 75 lines of the story friend. When the trip to Disneyland Resorts was announced we natural agreed to ride the bus together. It was the weekend of my 15th birthday. I was so excited. We planned our weekend together with a few of our friends. Everything was on schedule. I was sharing a room with my old best friend Justice David. Isaac had his room to his self because he was the last boy to sign up. He said he did not mind because he wanted to be by himself. I just said ok and left the subject alone. As the trip approached, Isaac was always around. It did not bother me because we were best friends. I liked having him around. He always made me the center of his attention. It made me feel important. I did notice a few changes in our friendship. Sometimes he would hug me longer than normal or he would tell his friend not to mess with me. He would get more physical with me. Touching me and pulling me away from my locker. It was never in a bad way. I just noticed it. I never asked him about it but I did see it. That was a dumb thing for me to do. I mean maybe if I would have brought it to his attention... He always said he wanted what was best for me. I look back at that statement and laugh. What's best for me! Ha! He did not know what was best for me. He only wanted what he wanted. He didn't care bout me. He probably never cared about me. Ok back to the story. As we got on the bus to Disneyland Resorts we laughed and talked. There wasn't much more to do, since we had to wait. I had brought snacks and headphones for the bus ride. I had two bags I put one in the back and I kept my backpack with me. Isaac just brought his backpack and a little cover. “I watched the weather channel. The weather man said it is supposed to be beautiful out there” “Not as beautiful as you.” “You silly. I know I am beautiful, but dang you don't have to tell everyone.” “I mean it. You look really pretty today.” I smiled and got on the bus first. Since it was the end of June, it was hot. I had worn my freshly brought lime green daisydukes and a crisp new white t with a lime green t under it. I was looking cute. I had gotten all new clothes for an early birthday present. My mom said, “turning 15 is a big step in growing up. That is why I am letting you go on this trip. Be very responsible. I trust you Dinah.” The bus was so cold. The air conditioning must have been on high blast because it was like winter up in that bus. “You know I got you a surprise for your birthday on Saturday,” Isaac said as he sat down next to me. “You do,” I asked nicely, “I thought you had forgot.” “How could I. You been counting down days all month.” I smiled and said, “oh.” As we rolled out of the school parking lot, I looked back without an ounce of regret. So thankful to be away from my bad brother and sisters, I smiled. I put my backpack down in front of me. He moved the adjustable armrest up and laid the cover on him and me. I took my headphone out of my backpack. Then I choose a CD to listen to for the bus ride. The bus left the school at twelve noon on Thursday and we were to arrive at seven thirty that night. We stopped at two rest stops and one gas station. Isaac went in the gas station and got us some food. When he came back, he smiled. “What,” I asked. “Nothing. I was just getting the finishing touch for your surprise on Saturday,” he said with a big grin on his face. “Ok,” I said and left it at that. “Can you braid my hair oh Friday night, girlie?” he asked as we rolled away from the gas station. “Sure,” I said before lying on his shoulder. He smiled and said, “thanks.” Before I knew it, I was sleep on Isaac's shoulder. Snuggling under the cover with me, he warmed himself with my body heat. We soon reached the resort. Warm and colorful, the resort looked cozy and fun. We got our room assignments and went to put up our things for the weekend. We decide that going swimming before dinner was a good idea, so we got on our suit and went to the pool. Justice and me had gotten matching swimsuits and outfits. We thought we were cute. Justice was older than I so all the boys looked at her more, but I got my share of looks. I did not want any, but when you are this cute and it is your birthday you get a lot of attention. I enjoyed the attention and just went with it. I even got the attention from Isaac. Was that a surprise? Not to me either, but at the time I was surprised. Anyways, so I felt special that some dumb high school boys thought I was cute, even thought they could not do anything for me. I had fun on Thursday night. I swam and ate, then went to bed. Friday is when things were complained. Our day was planned, but we did not follow it word by word. That would have taking care of the complaintion, but Isaac friend little Damon was all over Becca. Justice and Big Tony were kissing and hugging. The only ones that were not pair off were Isaac and I. I felt I little weird, because first I was the youngest and I did not like Isaac like that. I could tell he wanted to kiss somebody. If that someone was me I aint sure. He did hold my hand, but that was not long. When we went on the big roller coasters I was so scared, but I did not want the group to know that, so I rode all of them anyways. Isaac was the only one who knew, because every time I was scared I would bury my face in his shirt and he would hold me closer. At lunch, he whispers that he knew I was scared. I smiled in appreciation and Justice seen the whole thing. She mentioned it and the whole group oh and ah. They said before the end of the day we would be together, but we both denied it. At the end of the day, we went back to the rooms. At first we were all chilling, but Justice and Big Tony left for his room. Then Becca and little Damon left for Isaac's room. That left Isaac and me alone. Big Tony whispered something to Isaac before he left; Becca winked at me; Justice just smiled. Not know what to do after they left, I offered to braid Isaac's hair. We had never really been alone like this and I really did not like the feeling I was getting. I wanted to tell him to leave, but I did not want him to get the wrong idea. I turned on the TV and started his hair. As he sat below me, I felt his breath quickens and his hands touched my inner thighs. I would have thought it was an accident, but his hands stayed in one place way to long for it to have been an accident. To play it off I said, “boy quit playing. I am working.” He laughed but did not remove his hand. “ What you talking bout girlie?” he asked in a unknowing tone. “I mean your hand on my inner thigh. Get it off.” “Oh my bad. Didn't realize it was there...but your thighs are very soft.” I smiled, not knowing what to do next. I braided his hair as fast as I could, so he could leave. He then told me that little Damon had told him not to come back to the room until the last check that night. I smiled again. I managed to get out and ok, but I sounded very weak. “It seems like he gonna get him some tonight. Dang he lucky. I need me some.” “Get him some?” “Yeah you know sex?” “Oh right.” “You didn't know?” “No. Was I suppose to know?” “Well yeah. In fact, we could have some if you want?” “No thanks. I don't do that.” “Do what? It's just fun. Come on what do you say?” “No I don't do that.” “For me?” “I can't. I am sorry.” “Well why not?” “I want to save my virginity for my husband.” “You think he going to be a virgin? Only if he is a nerd or a loser will he be a virgin. I want it and I want it now, girl!” “I said No.” “Well we will see bout that.” He walked pass me and out of the door. With a great sigh, I sat on my bed. Trying my hardest not to cry, I decided to call my mother. I didn't mention what had happened, but she could tell something was wrong. I got off the telephone and lay in my bed. What was his problem? We was just laughing and joking not to long ago. How did he turn in to such a monster? I didn't want to saying anything to nobody so I said I would just forget it. I just would not be as close to him anymore. I was not going to let that ruin my birthday. When I got dress the next morning, Justice asked me a million questions. All about last night and what happen after she left. I try to change the subject, but she wanted to know. When I say, “nothing happened.” She just laughed. “Ok fine don't tell me. What yall did, but I already know,” she said with a big grin on her face. I kept saying we didn't do it if that's what she thought but she didn't believe me. “I see the way he looks at you D Mack.” “Well I don't look at him the same. Ok.” “Ok, all I am saying is don't let that big brother routine fool you. He wants you Bad with a capital B.” “Maybe, but I hope not.” Oh D Mack before I forget. Don't say you know this, but Isaac is throwing you a birthday party tonight. I heard him and Big Tony talking bout it late last night. They said you was going to get a big surprise.” “Is that all you heard?” “Did y'all really do nothing?” “Yes.” “Yep. That's all I heard.” We walked out of the room to meet the group. I walked behind Justice and as far as away possible from Isaac. “So where is the Birthday girl?” Isaac asked in a sweet tone. When he noticed where I was he came closer to me. “What up, girlie?” “Don't call me that,” I said in a whisper. “Aww... Come on you still mad about last night? That was my fault. I'm sorry.” “You are right it's your fault but I don't want to be bothered by you today. So you go find you a little hoocie to chill with cuz I aint the one.” The group ahead of us didn't seem to notice our conversion, so I walked faster and left Isaac behind. I continue to stay as far away as possible, but he kept closer to me than I wanted. He kept saying how sorry he was. He didn't mean to make me upset. Just crap I should have never believe. He brought me breakfast, lunch and ate dinner with me. He brought me: a watch and bracelet both of which said my name on them, and airbrush T-shirt with my name on it and a baseball cap that matched my shirt. He won me: a little frog, a big snake, and three big teddy bears. I smile and said thank you but I still wasn't convince I should even let him near me again. Justice and Becca said Isaac was so sweet for buying me all of those things. I just said that well it is my birthday and smiled. Justice winked at me and then whisper something to Becca. “We'll be back boys. Bathroom break,” said Becca. They pulled me along and smiled at the boys. Isaac smiled directly at me and winked a Justice. When we got to the bathroom, the girls questioned me. “Now what really happened.” “Isaac is buying you all this stuff. It must have been good girl.” “I already told Justice that nothing happened. Dang, it is my birthday. Why can't he buy me a lot of stuff?” “We aint saying he can't. It's just... girl he likes you and we know you like him. Yesterday, you were all over him. He liked it girl. We knew he was hitting that little booty so just tell us what happened.” “Ok I will.” “Well... was it good?” “No cuz it aint happened. Don't ask me any more cuz I aint going to tell yall again.” I walked out of the bathroom, and then they followed close behind. “We can always find out from Isaac,” said Justice. What was that a threat? “Go ahead,” I replied to her. Becca just smiled. When we got back to the boys, Becca sat right next to Isaac and whispered in his ear. Little Damon had a big smile and he kept looking at me. Justice and Big Tony were talking in a low whisper, but I could hear them. “She wouldn't say,” she whispered to him. “Yea he did not say anything either,” he whispered back, “well tonight is planned out so we will know for sure.” I didn't know what that meant but I kept it in my mind. As the day went on, I kept a close watch on the guys. I put on a smile, while my brain was at work on what the conversion I over heard meant. By the end of the day, I still didn't know what that conversion meant. Therefore, I gave up. Looking back at that day, I just want to kick myself in the head for being so stupid. I mean now when I hear that conversion in my head I want to say how could yall idiots let him do that. What is wrong with y'all? I can only blame myself for my stupid back then. I am thankful that I have become wiser. Anyways, I was really having fun all day. Isaac and me made up, so everything was fine there. To top that off, people kept saying happy birthday ever where I went. I look so cute too. My freshly fifteen-year-old body was making all the people in the Resort stare. Today was my day. After dinner, I went back to my room. Before I got there, Justice stopped me. She said that Isaac wanted me in his room. She said he had one more surprise. Justice and I walked over to his room. When I opened the door, “HAPPY BIRTHDAY!” The room was packed. Everybody was there. Right in my face, Isaac was smiling and holding two cups. I smiled back and said thank you. Isaac handed me a cup and everyone started dancing. Since there wasn't much room, everyone was touching everyone. I drank from my cup and started dancing with Isaac. I drank the whole cup and dancing with about six other people. An hour an half later, Isaac was still dancing with me only he was getting close, closer than normal. I was telling him to back up, but he never did. It was as if I wasn't in control of my body. I could see things happening, but I could not stop them. As people started leaving, I wanted to go but Isaac wasn't letting me go. I said let me go but he didn't. I was pulling me away from the door and closer to the last beds in the room. He kissed me first on the lips, then down to my hips. He kept his grip firm on my waste. Said no repeatedly, but the words never came out. I tried to kick and scream and he undressed me. I could not stop him. People watched as he peeled my clothes away. “I got next on that little tenderloin,” some one called from the crowd. “Shet up stupid this is my girl,” Isaac said. I watched helpless, he touched me and kissed me for all the room to see. As he unbuttoned his pants, I scream as loud and violently as possible. Nobody seemed to hear me. I could see with my eyes but my mouth did not work. As he worked his way into my flesh, I began to cry. As his pact quickened, he started talking to me. “This is what you wanted. I know you did. You just didn't want a rep to start. Now everyone will know whose girl you are. ” I wanted to dig his eyes out, but my hand wouldn't move. “You like what Isaac is giving you don't you? Don't worry you going to feel it. I am going to give it to you girlie.” I felt like hours before he stopped and let me go. The crowd watched the whole time. When he did let me go, I did not move. I wanted to cover myself but I could not. He picked me up like a baby and led me to the bathroom. He set me in the tub and turned on the warm water. “I can see it in your eyes. You liked it.” He said nothing else to me. He sat down on the toilet and watched me. I didn't move I just sat and cried, then he started crying too. After a while he sat on ground next to the tub. He got a washcloth and began rubbing me with it. I wanted to say do not touch me but I could not. I was helpless. I could not feel him rubbing me, but I knew he was. “Dang girl. You got that good stuff. What do you say to another round? How bout we do it right here?” I said no but that did not stop him. He just smiled and picked me up out of the bathtub and laid me on the floor. As his chest bumped mine, I wished with all my heart that I could just punch him. He ripped through me was as much speed as a racecar. I could not stop him or feel him. I lay there helplessly crying for help. Nobody seemed to hear me. I soon began to feel my toes, then my legs. I started wiggling and that's when he realized I was moving. When I felt my hands, I began hitting him. That only made him even more excited. I try to push him off me, but he was too strong. When I got my voice, I screamed at the top of my lungs, but he cover my mouth. I tried to bite him, but I could not. He held me down as long as he could and then he let go with such a force that if he was not holding me I might have slid away. Still holding me down he said, “now if you scream I will do it again okay?” I nodded. He removed his hand from my mouth and slowly let me up. “Now wash your self up. I will go get your clothes. Do not leave this bathroom, girlie.” He left the bathroom and I stood up. I felt so much pain, physically and mentally. My head spun and then I fainted. When I woke up on Sunday, I felt sleepy and confused. I was in my room with my pajamas on. I could barely remember where I was and what happened the night before. Justice was already up packing. She did not look my way when I sat up and looked around. I cleared my throat and she didn't move. She only spoke, “are you ok?” “I don't know.” “Isaac said you had to much to drink. He had me undress you and we put you in bed.” “Did he say anything else?” “No that was it.” “Oh. Well I am fine,” I lied. “You didn't look fine when he brought you in here.” “”Well I am.” “Sorry I didn't stay at the party. Tony and me when back here.” “Was Becca there?” “For a little while. Then she went some where with Damon.” “Oh.” “Everybody has been coming up here to see you.” “Do they say what they wanted?” “Yea... they said... they want a piece of... that ass too.” “What?” “Well the guys that came up here said they want a piece of that ass too.” “Did you tell them to get the hell on?” Not knowing what to say, she left. I got up slowly and went to the bathroom. I pulled down my underwear to find blood everywhere. I pulled them off and went to the bathroom. I got in the shower and scrubbed my body. As I dried my hair by the tub, I heard the door open and close. I thought Justice had finally come back. I walked out in a towel about to question her more when I realized that it was not Justice standing near my bed. It was Isaac to my surprise. “Just checking on my girlie,” he said walking over to me. “Get out.” “Now is that anyway to greet your man?” “Get out now!” I said walking back to the bathroom. He followed me. I slammed the door in his face, but that did not his voice from reaching me. “Come on girlie. Let's talk.” “We have nothing to talk about. Get out now!” “Come on now. Do not be like that. We should talk.” “I don't want to talk to you see you or hear your voice so get out please.” I said against the door. “I guess we can talk on the bus.” “No we can't.” “Aiight we'll see.” The door slammed and I waited. I sat at the bathroom door and just waited. When I found my legs I got up and opened the door. I surveyed the room and walked out of the bathroom. I sat on my bed and looked at the room. Something was wrong. I felt as though someone was watching me. Dismissing the thought, I got up and got dress. On the bus, I sat with another friend. I told her that I was mad at Isaac, so I didn't want to sit by him. She asked was it because of last night. I said no. When he got on the bus, he looked at me and was about to say something, but he stopped. He was mad I could tell. His hazel eyes were brown, so I knew he was upset. When we got to the school, I started home. He caught up to me in his car. “We got to talk!” he screamed at me. “No we don't,” I said with my luggage in my arms. “Let me take you home,” he said stopping the car. “No! Leave me alone, Isaac.” The angry in his eyes scared me, but I did not let it show. He hopped out of the car and stood in front of me. “We should talk about last night,” he said as he tried to take my luggage from me. I snatched it back and said, “WHY? Nothing happened.” “Don't give me that shit, girl.” “Look I just want to forget it ok. So leave me alone.” “No I can't! I love you!” “No, you don't. DO NOT talk to me any more. God are you stupid. Leave me alone!” I walk away lugging my two luggages. He watched me walk to my house and shut the door. “I won't cry. He isn't worth my tears,” I thought to myself as I lay in my bed at home, “I refuse to cry over him.” A few weeks later at school, I got sick, my teacher, Mr. Dothan, sent my to the nurse. “You got some crazy ideas doc,” I said as I got up from the table. “Well, if you are sexually active it can happen.” “Well I ain't so that solves that mystery. Can I go?” “Yea. Just let me know if these feelings continue ok.” “Okay. See ya around.” I left and went back to Mr. Dothan class. When I walked in Isaac looked at me as if he was worried about me. I rolled my eyes and went back to my seat. After class, Mr. Dothan asked me to stay for a minute. I did. “What did the nurse say?” “The craziest thing... she thinks I am pregnant! I told her no possible cuz I ain't active. I mean not now...” “Oh... um. Well she knows what she is talking about.” “Yeah, sure whatever. Bye, Mr. Dothan.” “Bye Dinah. Be careful.” When I walked out of the class, Isaac was waiting for me. “I over heard your conversion with Mr. Dothan.” “You were easy dropping?” I said in shock. “Kinda.” “No you were! Did I not say stay a way from me Isaac?” “Yeah, but a baby?” “No! No baby.” “Well it could be. I mean that weekend was crazy.” “No you crazy. Stay away from me.” “Dee, you know it's mine.” “Did you hear me. There aint no god damn baby...” “Is there a problem?” Mr. Dothan asked. I did not realize I was still in front of his class. “No,” Isaac said. “Yes,” I said at the exact same time. “Okay why did we handle this in my room.” I walked in but Isaac waited, then he said, “I don't have the problem she doesn't.” That is when I got mad. I went right up to him and said, “you little son of a bitch. If you ever come near me I will make sure that you never walk again got it. Get the hell out of here now!” Isaac turned and walked away. Mr. Dothan looked at me. “What has gotten in to you, Dinah?” I looked at him and said, “I hate him!” “Why? Not to long ago you two were best friends. What happened?” “Nothing...” “Some thing happened. Tell me Dinah. You can trust me.” “Okay but this is just between us okay?” “'Okay.” “Well... he raped me.” “Oh Dinah. I am so sorry.” “Don't be. Just forget it. It does not matter. Girls get raped everyday, so whatever. Okay.” “Yes. It does matter. We can put him away.” “No! I don't want that.” “Dinah he raped you. You can't let him get away with that.” “Look, Mr. Dothan you said this was between us. So let's just keep it that way okay. I gotta go to class.” I walked out of his class and went home. When I got home I went to my room, turned on my CD player and layed down. When my mom got home, I told her I was sick, so I left school early. My mind was racing. I am having a baby. It's Isaac's baby. I want to kill him. The nurse has never been wrong. I should not worry. I should not have told Mr. Dothan, I kept thinking. I avoided talking to Mr. Dothan all week. On Friday, he stopped me. I could not use the excuse I was going to be late for my next class and my teacher hates that because he let the class out twenty minutes early. “Dinah, how are you?” “I was fine. I don't mean to sound rude but what is it? I am in a hurry, Mr. Dothan.” “Have you been avoiding me?” “Yeah.” “Why?” “Well I really don't was to talk about anything you are going to say.” “Dinah, you can't lye to yourself forever. You gotta talk to someone about what happened.” “Nothing happened, so there is nothing to talk about.” “Dinah. Come on you know what happened. You gotta say something.” “No I don't!” “If you don't I will!” “I will deny it then.” “Dinah don't do this okay.” “No I ain't doing nothing.” “Yes you are.” “I gotta go Mr. Dothan.” “Wait, Dinah. Please?” “Why?” “Because I think you should. Maybe we can talk.” “About what?” “What happened.” “Um... maybe but I gotta go.” “Okay just come back to my room after school.” “Okay” When I came to Mr. Dothan room after school, he was there waiting. He looked at me with guilt in his eyes. I smiled and said hi. “Dinah have a seat for me will you,” he said gesturing to a desk in front of him. I did. “You might not want to hear this but it has to be said.” “Okay?” “When Isaac was in ninth grade, he came to me and said he was getting raped. He never said by whom, but did say by whom when he was ready. For weeks, I asked him, and he did not say. Then one day he told me. A tenth grade girl. Of course, we both confronted her and she said that they had sex but it was not rape. She said she was pregnant with his baby and she was keeping it. Isaac and the girl started fighting and I had to stop them. Isaac lost his temper and said, ‘ you are a stupid hoe and I would not sleep with yo ugly ass ever again.' That is when I knew that the girl was not lying. After we left I told Isaac, that if she was keeping the baby it was his responsibility. The next week I heard she had a miscarriage. Isaac was so happy; I, on the other hand, was not happy at all. Isaac made fun of her and just made her life hell. After a few weeks, she killed he self. She left a note. It said everything about Isaac and the baby and me.” “What happened after that?” “I told Isaac that he had better tell the truth and he didn't. I told him I was going to the police and he threaten me. I still went to the police and he got a year in Juvenile hall. He came back and said he was a new man. I didn't believe it. He said he was sorry for the trouble he had caused. I was still watching him carefully even when you came here this year.” “Oh... dang Mr. D that's deep. He got problems and I don't even want to be in this mess. Can't you understand that. I just want to forget. Never live the hurt and pain again.” “I can. Do you feel like telling me what happened,” he said with a smile. “I guess...” “Take your time sweetheart.” I told him everything; from beginning to the end. By the end of my story, I was crying and so was Mr. Dothan. He handed me a tissue and started asking me questions. “He did that in front of all those people?” “Yea.” “Did he use protection?” “No.” “He cried?” “Yep.” “He did it again?” “Yes.” “Am I the only one you have told?” “Yes. Why all the questions?” “I need to make sure I got the story right. So you don't want to do nothing?” “Yes.” “Why?” “Because then I have to prove something I know to a brunch of strangers. I don't like telling the story, that's why only you know the story.” “What are you going to do if you are pregnant?” “I don't know yet.” “Well there are many things you can do.” “I know. Look Mr. Dothan I gotta go.” “Okay. I will see you later.” I left his room and went to my next class... That is my story y'all. Oh what happened to me? Well, I was pregnant. I did have to the baby, a girl her name is Iyss De'Louis Afresh. It was Isaac baby. I get a check for the baby from him every month. My mother, Mr. Dothan, Isaac and me are the only ones that know I was raped. I don't really talk to Isaac any more and he see the baby every now and then. He always talks to me, though. I still go to Jefferson high school and I am graduating today. My baby girl is going to be three on July 14. I never think about that day. Isaac still says he loves me, but we do not ever talk about my 15th birthday. He says he loves the baby. I forgave him and I forgave myself too. I have a job and I plan to go to college. My Dad found out about the baby and gave Isaac and good three beat downs. Isaac had to get a court order for my dad. My dad doesn't know I was raped, because I did not want him to kill him. At first, I did, but I got over that. My mother helps me raise Iyss. I don't know what I would do without her. I thank god for my blessings and the many lessons he has taught me. I am glad I told my story to the world. I think that will allow me to close that dark chapter in my life. Thank you for listening to my story. Tweet
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