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Ink and Time (standard:drama, 4675 words) | |||
Author: servetheser | Added: Nov 04 2005 | Views/Reads: 3131/2175 | Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes) |
Marcus and Brandon were the best of friends in highschool,now one year into college, Brandon starts to become depressed and sucicidal. Marcus is easily classified as far from sainthood. When it appears that Brandon is in trouble he comes to see his frien | |||
Click here to read the first 75 lines of the story discovered something that shocked her. Scars, they covered his arms wherever his shirt was. Carefully she ran her finger down each one. She found composure in this and stopped her trembling. She started to lean down to kiss one of the larger ones when she heard the clumsy pounding of her intoxicated friends charging down the stairwell. Without explanation Charles pulled Bradley down the stairs and on top of Brandon, screaming “Help him!” Slowly catching up with reality Bradley took over, shouting commands to his friends. Bradley preformed CPR for almost thirty minutes refusing to give up on his friend, until for some reason Brandon woke up crying and looking Bradley dead in the eyes. Though Bradley never liked to speak of it, the look Brandon first gave him haunted him for weeks. It wasn't something that he found himself able to describe. When Kittie had first arrived in Starkville, she found herself calling up old acquaintances from days she wished she could forget. This is how she first met Brandon. She first eyed him at one of Brad's parties. He was sitting in the corner on a disgusting chair that smelled of Jager and vomit. He had a calmness that didn't seem to fit his surroundings. It was Brandon's very existence that grabbed Kittie's attention. It was almost as it if he were seeing things in the atmosphere that others were blind to. He studied interaction with people as if communication and socializing were foreign to him. That was until he had a few drinks in him, of course. He was obviously a tortured individual, angry at something, maybe just himself. He had a tattoo on his back, a smiley face, with X's for eyes. Like the ones you see on the T-shirts of Nirvana kids; the ones who spend their lives in Cobain apparel, spending hours upon hours worshiping the dead poet, ironically becoming the very things the once great musician hated. That first night at Pat's, Brandon was the most hilarious, drunken, smart-ass she had ever met. For some reason everything he said was golden, at least she thought so. It was all in his eyes, brown and innocent, yet every look had an uncanny mix of agony and love for Kittie. She loved his tragic glances. For some reason a world of love can be displayed in a half a moment if people take the time to look for it. She felt this love and for those moments she didn't feel like trash. Kittie sat in her room staring at a broken mirror wishing someone would save her. She always felt that way these days. Only a few months earlier she had been happy, her life was perfect. She had her own apartment in Tampa, Florida, a plum job answering a telephone at an office, and a long time boyfriend she lived with, and loved more and more everyday. Somehow over the course of three emotionally draining months she had diminished to feeling totally helpless. “It's just not working anymore,” that's what Martin had said. They both knew it was bullshit. But, because of her love, or maybe it was simply out of the spite brought on by his betrayal; she accepted this excuse and let him go. In truth Kittie had felt the breakdown coming for months now. She had dropped out of college and moved in with Martin, thinking that all they needed was each other. Only she was blinded by her own affection to find all Martin needed was a soft body to love, not a soul mate. She felt used and dried up like old sponge. Worn out and tossed to the side, she was forced to move home and once again face the town where she had grown up, Starkville, Mississippi. She would spend her days bouncing from one parent's house to the other, feeling once again like a possession they fought over, rather than a daughter. Looking in her freshly broken mirror Kittie now hated herself, she hated her face, her hair, and her body. She hated her tattoos. Kittie had been under the needle nine times, it being what she called, “One of the most exhilarating experiences, even better than sex!” Before, Kittie had always loved these beautifully colored scars carefully placed on her person; each one had a story or some meaning behind it. (But now the only feelings of the past she felt were pain and betrayal.) The random symbols were faded now, lacking luster, just as she did. They became nothing more than what they were; scars, deep and cutting straight to her heart. Only unlike most people, Kittie wore her emotions for all to see. The morning after Brandon's incident, Kittie sat in her black SUV, it was a monstrous sized Chevy, with a custom plate reading “Meow2U.” With bloodshot eyes she looked down on a half-empty bottle of tequila, an old Mexican friend who now taunted her with shame. She felt like a murderer, if she hadn't killed Brandon, maybe it was just a piece of herself. “Why? Why did he have to keep saying my name while he was laying there?” Kittie thought. “How could he ever love someone who's all but robbed everything from him in such a short time.” Walking into the seemingly foreign walls of the apartment Kittie now called home, she found herself staring in her mirror. Gazing into a sleep deprived complexion she let out a single tear. It was the most painful yet meaningful moment she had experienced in months. For some reason she knew she had almost killed something she loved. One tear from a heart finally broken. That was all it took to seal the fate of her soul-bearing mirror. Kittie woke from an unpleasant rest to the sound of her phone. It was Marcus. Marcus was an old friend of Brandon, who now went to school in Jackson. No two friends were ever closer. Both were naturally quiet people with a love for the bizarre. Together they had spent their school days silently criticizing the seemingly, feudal social life of high school. They were losers then, but from that time they pulled a deep since of responsibility and respect for each other; in other words they were friends. “Ok Kitty, tell me what the hell happened?” asked Marcus, through a static telephone. With a numbing sense of calmness Kitty bared her soul to the faceless, angry voice on the other end of the phone, and recapped the events of the past night. “So basically you were just pouring drinks down Brandon's throat to entertain yourself.” Kittie started crying, pleading with Marcus to be reasonable. “Please I'm sorry, I don't need you trying to make me feel any worse about the whole thing.” “I don't need you making things worse for him!” Marcus shouted. “There are things about the guy that you don't know. Did you ever notice the cuts on his arms? I'll give you a hint those aren't any paper cuts. He's been doing it for a long time. And, he's been saying things Kittie; things I just don't know how to interpret. Scary things. When he told me about last night, I told him I was coming to see him, all he said was, “If I'm still here man.” I've known the guy for ten years, he's never blown be off before, look let me tell you something, he cares about you Kittie; Brandon doesn't even notice most people. But, for some reason, he listens to you, I don't know why, but Kittie, he's no wounded mouse for you to toy with. I'm coming home, I'm on 55 and I'm driving fast!” An abrupt click on the other end of the phone ended the angry conversation. As Kittie hung up her phone she looked at her own wrists, upon them she wore a score of hash marks from her service in the war against depression. Kittie somehow felt she knew Brandon much better now. Brandon sat in his room staring at an empty corner. It was an unexpected phone call from his friend Marcus that had reminded him of this place. He stared a few moments more then got up and picked up a razor blade from one of his drawers. He knelled down with his knife and studied this empty space. He started cutting the carpet. He removed a large square from his dusty rug and carefully rolled it up. The floor was cheap plastic made to look like tile. It was stained with pictures of stick men and scribbles. He almost smiled for a moment when he saw this, remembering when he and Marcus had done this as kids, receiving the spanking of a lifetime. Suddenly thundering sounds of familiarity arouse somewhere in the back of Brandon's mind, he recognized it instantly, it was Marcus. Marcus's car was always recognizable. A 5 liter, V8, mustang, pure white, with black interior, it was a beauty. He had heard that car come rolling up the gravel in the trailer park all through high school, but it wasn't until now that he had thought it odd. He thought of Marcus differently now, he missed his dear friend very much but felt somehow distant from him. Marcus was a rich banker's son, a sarcastic asshole, an artist, and a chain smoker, an alcoholic, and above all a womanizer. Brandon thought it was funny how truly different they had become. With a loud cracking sound Marcus violently swung the door to the trailer open, with a smirk not unlike that of the Cheshire Cat, from the Alice in Wonderland movie he remembered watching as a kid. Marcus sang, “Hey asshole!” To which Brandon responded in the traditional manner they had done for years, “Hey shit head!” Brandon suddenly felt happy seeing his old friend, he now seemed unchanged, he still wore the same old Converse All-stars he had trudged his way though high school in. Though his shoes were old, Marcus, had made it a habit of “dressing to kill” since he got that damn mustang. Today he wore a dark black silk shirt, a red tie, black pinstripe pants, and matching fedora. “Heard you died, seems you didn't do to good a job,” said Marcus, as he sat on the couch next to Brandon fishing in his pocket for a cigarette. “Well I heard you hooked up with a fat chick last week, seems your loosing your touch, Romeo,” responded Brandon. They tried to force laughter when Marcus changed moods. He looked at Brandon, with a tired, white washed complexion. Brandon recognized this look. It wasn't normal for one as wild as Marcus it was the same look he used to wear when he would show up at Brandon's house in the middle of the night after fighting with his father. Also this was the only time when he noticed the scar on Marcus's jaw. Marcus hadn't exactly been the greatest athlete in high school. In fact he hated sports. He would often skip football practice to curl up under a tree outside school with some book of poetry. This fact had cut Marcus's father very deeply. When he had quit the football team his sophomore year the two found they had little to talk about. Marcus was awkward in the world of sports, and his father, uninterested in art. That scar always made Marcus self cautious, often he would sit and silently rub it when he was drunk and depressed. Ironically his father had one identical to it, only on the right side of his face. Both had received them the same way, a broken chinstrap, meeting the wrath of a frustrated linebacker. Marcus fumbled with a Zippo bled dry of fluid, and mumbled with a camel in his mouth. He looked as if he was about to tell some sort of story when he stopped, looked his dearest friend in the eye and said, “You doing ok man? You kinda scared me on the phone.” “I know man I wasn't thinking straight. Sorry,” Brandon replied. Brandon rubbed his joints; they were sore with the sour pain of alcohol poisoning. He stared at the ground, then looked over at Marcus and said, “Before you even ask man, I didn't have any out of body experience I didn't float over myself and see my life flash before my eyes. I know you believe in God and all that romantic crap but it wasn't anything spectacular. It was just cold darkness. It wasn't even that scary. Until I knew I was ok, that is. There's just one thing dude. I... Well, I remember leaving, I was dead, well almost at least. But, then for some reason I decided to come back, it hit me like a brick wall and I can't compare it to anything. All I remember is laying there on the couch concentrating on breathing. But I knew, I knew why I came back; I knew why I was here. This morning I woke, and for the life of me I don't remember what it was. It's bugging the hell out of me I wish I could remember.” Marcus sat there silently looking at his friend, loosening his tie. Marcus knew Brandon, and knew he had said all he wanted to say. When the sound of an SUV on gravel came in the trailer from the open door. Kittie stepped out of her gas-guzzling automobile and looked at the expensive white car in the driveway. “Shit,” she thought. Brandon was perched on the doorstep, with the patient look of man who had lived past his years, when Kittie walked up. For a moment the two locked eyes. Kittie's heart fluttered, his brown eyes looked through her, with that shameful look of bittersweet, affection. “So should I go inside? Or has he calmed down?” Asked Kittie sitting down Indian style in front of him. “Nah don't worry, Marcus is harmless, I think he was just upset he wasn't there. I know it sounds weird. But he's like that.” “ I don't ever want to see anything like that again,” said Kittie. “I'm sorry,” Brandon whispered looking at the gravel beneath him. “Don't I was the one who...” Kittie started to say when Brandon interrupted her shouting, “How about we don't ever fucking talk about it. Let's just move on!” The two sat there silently for a moment playing eye games, Brandon eyed Kittie up and down she was fascinating. To him there seemed to be nothing generic about her. She wore a black corset top, with red strings, an old pair of blue jeans, covered with patches of bands no one had ever herd of and probably never would. He loved her battered clothing, and her loads of multicolored make-up, and her tattoos, one especially. On her ankle she had a cat sitting on the bottom of the ocean, surrounded by seaweed, and stingrays. Brandon was about to say something when a shadow fell over both of them, followed by a voice, “Hola gato? Coma estas?” Marcus knew a little Spanish, He had taken two years of it in high school, making a C both times. But, the only Spanish he had actually learned was from a beautiful, exchange student form Equador named Anna-Maria. Somehow Marcus had seduced her when he was a senior, and had a running joke with Brandon about it. “Damn you and your Ecuadorian loving!” Brandon replied, laughing. “Well what can I say? When you got it you got it,” said Marcus, with that Cheshire cat grin. As Marcus walked out Brandon noticed two things first he had striped down to a wife beater, and second he had made himself a drink while inside. Brandon studied his friend, sitting in the yard chair across from him. It seemed weird to him how only moments ago, Marcus had appeared, like he belonged in some office of some important building, now he seemed to blend in perfectly with the meager homes around him. Marcus closed his eyes and sat there with his drink. Brandon could smell it, whiskey sour, a double, it smelled like death. Brandon sat there pondering his dearest friend's metamorphosis into trailer trash. A horrible tension built up between the three of them. Kittie tried not to look at Marcus, as he sat there cautiously stirring his drink. Brandon searched the figures that were his friends looking for something, anything to break the ice between them. He searched for something they had in common trying hard to think, when suddenly Brandon broke out into laughter. “Dude you shaved your arm. What the hell?” “Slightly embarrassed Marcus began to laugh too, followed by Kittie, When their subtle laugher died out Kittie, turned to Marcus and asked, “So what were you going to get inked up there?” “Huh? How did you figure out that?” asked Marcus. “Every time you see a guy with a random part of his body shaved it usually means he's been dancing around the idea of getting a tattoo for weeks and has been drawing it on himself with sharpie for months.” The tattoo artist was a small Asian man with long greasy hair and golden teeth. His english was broken, and his body was marked with the profits of his trade. His shop was a small hole in the wall, which he lived in the back of. It smelled like the kitchen in a bad Chinese restaurant. “Sit down preze,” said the aging artist with his broken tongue. Marcus sat there sweating, nervously looking onto his two companions who were about to burst with laugher at his shivering appearance. “I promise it's not bad, don't be a pussy.” Brandon chuckled at him. “Time to break your cherry!” Kittie added. “Its not breaking cherries I'm afraid of as it is hepatitis, Marcus mumbled back. “Don't worry I've gotten work done here before, they're straight.” Kittie said as she showed him a tribal band around her arm. The buzz of a steel cutting devise sounded behind Marcus, causing him to almost jump out of his seat, which he would have had he not been weighed down by the heavy stairs of his friends. “Let me see picture, one more time.” Said the artist. Marcus pulled out and unfolded a piece of paper he had in his pocket, and handed it to the man. It was a heart, broken and stitched backed together with coarse thread. On one side stood a carefully drawn angel wing, on the other half a devil horn. The angel half was slightly larger than the devil; evidentially some of Marcus's own work. As the man eyed the artwork Marcus sat there trembling, squeezing a stuffed purple dragon with ear spacers, and a septum ring. “Be calm, preze,” said the tattoo artist. “K one, two, tree.” The needle felt like an exacto knife cutting into Marcus's skin. It was a sort of unusually satisfying pain followed by an adrenaline rush. Marcus's eyes looked as if they were platters of burning pain. He felt as if he were about to pass out when out of no where the artist, said. “Tell me a story, when you were little.” “Shit, umm...,” Marcus said, in distressed pain. “Well, I was born in Nashville Tennessee and in the neighborhood I lived in there was this small creek running through it. Usually in Nashville it snowed at least once a year but once when I was only about five, it got so cold that the creek froze over. I remember discovering it with my friend Dan. Dan was a little guy.” “Ugh,” Marcus let out a sigh of pain then looked back up at the ceiling. “Well, like I said I was little and we found this frozen creek. We decided that we wanted to cross it. I looked up to Dan. He was a year older and I thought I had to show off to make myself look cool to him. So when he suggested that, since I was the much bigger of the two of us, I should walk the ice, in the idea that if it was safe for me then it was certainly safe for him. I complied. I think I made it about half way when my foot fell through the ice followed by the rest of me. God it was cold! I struggled and I couldn't breath. But, when I looked over to Dan I only saw the footprints of where the bastard was once standing. So I realized I was alone, and took control if the situation. I calmed down and floated for a second. I unzipped my jacket, and started to pull my girth out of the freezing creek. By the time I managed to get out I had lost my jacket and kicked off my boots trying to get out. I crawled on the bank, then started running out of instinct. I knew I had to get home. So I just kept going I didn't think about the pain, or the cutting negative degree weather, I just kept running stiff legged. I passed out in the den in front of the fire. Next thing I know its morning, and I'm in my bed wrapped up in blankets.” “All finis” Said a foreign voice behind Marcus. Marcus look shocked at the beautiful crest he wore on his arm. He had forgotten all about the tattoo, he had been so into the story he was telling. “It's beautiful,” said Kittie with a huge grin on her face. “See man I told you only chicks get heart tattoos,” said Brandon. Marcus looked up from the new badge on his sleeve. He was going to return their fire, but stopped, Kittie and Brandon, were playing eye games. They were high on each other. He knew what was going on, and he knew the look in their eyes. In some ways he was happy for him, but mostly he just slightly shook his head. “She's going to eat him alive,” he thought. Brandon and Kittie walked to the car when unexpectedly Kittie took him by the hand. They laughed as they heard the sound of frustrated haggling between Marcus and The Asian man. “Hunred dorra.” “No, eighty, dorra.” Said Marcus with that Cheshire cat grin. “Ninry dorra!” Brandon sat down in the driver's seat of Marcus's Mustang, and watched as Kittie got in and closed the door. The two locked eyes, in Kittie's face Brandon found a sence of calmness and adoration he thought himself immune too. She pulled him towards her and kissed him hungrily. It was the sort of kiss one remembers forever, the kind that makes your whole body sing, and weep and the same time. As Brandon sat there in the arms of Kittie, he couldn't help but think, “All it took was ink and time." Tweet
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