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Blessing's In Disguise (standard:drama, 2187 words) | |||
Author: Anonymous | Added: May 23 2003 | Views/Reads: 8657/2976 | Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes) |
It's about blessings in disguise. ;-) | |||
Click here to read the first 75 lines of the story We had no business being as stoned as we were. Our eyes were blatantly cashed and laughter was due to meaningless ramblings. God help us. My phone rang and I saw that Stacy was calling. I think my heart began to pound harder and harder as I answered. I smiled and said, “hello gorgeous.” She giggled and responded, “hey Age.” She called me “Age,” short for Adrian. “What are you up to?” I asked. Well, a few friends and I are going to the movies. You should meet us there.” For once, it seemed that something was going my way. The seven previous Friday's held nothing entertaining for us, except random drugs and aimless driving. Tonight was different. We met them about an hour later. I was complaining to Rob, as we walked, about our poor parking space, which was located far from our destination. We approached the ladies. Stacy was wearing blue jeans; the cuffs were rolled up probably two times. She was wearing a t-shirt of a rock band I knew nothing about. Her short black hair seemed to lie comfortably on her head. Her cute face seemed to be blushing as she looked at me with her sky-blue eyes. “Took you long enough,” she jokingly said. “Sorry.” I had no excuse. “Are you stoned?” One of her friend's inquires. Rob and I stood their stupidly and shamefully answered yes. The girls just giggled and had nothing else to say, it seemed. “Umm...I have to go to the bathroom;” Rob said and left me there alone with the gals. “So, what have you been up to Stacy?” I asked, trying to start a conversation. “Nothing really. Just been hanging out with Andy.” Andy was her boyfriend. I never met the guy, but for some reason I thought I was better than him, in every way of course. “Cool,” I said. I wanted to tell her how much I liked her, how much I wanted to make her happy. I wanted to lust at her and kiss her like she's never been kissed before. These are the things I daydream about at work, by the way. I couldn't bring myself to do it though. I know she would deny me and I'd never see her again. That's my kind of luck. So, I just let it go and smiled at her. Rob returned and we all joked around and laughed at each other before we saw the movie. It was a nice time. It was also the last night Rob and I would be alive, it seemed. We were driving home; we weren't stoned any longer. We were mostly just fatigued. I was thinking of Stacy; thinking of things I should've said and done. I didn't want to forget about what she looked like. It'd probably be weeks, even months before I'd see her again. It's always like that. Rob's seatbelt was slipped around the emergency brake, because my defective car's seat belt didn't work. It wouldn't latch. The seatbelt around the brake was something we fashioned so that we wouldn't get pulled over by the cops. "Click it or ticket," as they say. The rest goes without saying. Of course I could describe the accident in mind-numbing detail, but I'd rather not. I could talk about how the drunkard was speeding through the intersection and how we were t-boned and the crunch of metal and glass- No, I'd rather not. . . I was at the cemetery. I was leaning on an old tree peering at my tombstone. My parents were huddled in front of it, crying. My father wasn't thinking about the dirty basement. At least, I don't think he was. “Hey,” a voice inquired. I turned; thinking it might be Rob or someone else I knew. It wasn't. It was a fat old man. He was wearing some old baseball cap, which blocked the sun from ruining his baldhead. He approached me slowly; he looked like he'd go down at any moment. “They can't see you,” he said, in regards to my parents. “They can't hear you either.” “Okay,” I said. I was confused, who was this guy? And how could HE see or hear me? “Think of me as your angel,” he continued. He didn't look like an angel. “I know what you're thinking. I know what I look like. But looks are superficial, you know?” “I know,” I agreed. He continued to explain things to me. “Do you regret not saying ‘good-bye' to them?” I thought about the question for a moment. “I regret a lot of things.” “Why is that?” I felt uncomfortable. These were difficult questions. “Because I'm dead,” was my answer. “Do you know what you are?” He asked another distressing question. I shrugged, waiting for him to proceed. “Have you ever been to the movies?” The question sickened me. “How about an amusement park or the mall? Or even the super market.” I nodded. “Well, have you ever been at one of these places and seen someone who appears to be very peculiar? For some reason they grab your interest and you get the chills. But only for a split second. Then you get distracted and then they are gone. They disappear. You don't even think of that person again. You understand what I'm saying?" “Yeah, kind of.” I said. I had no clue. “Those are ghosts Adrian. And that's what you are. Just a fragment of someone's vision for a split second.” This explanation made me feel depressed. The realization of death seemed to be coming on, like the oppressive heat of a desert city. We stood quietly for a moment. I started a conversation, for some reason. "You know how your brain still has six minutes of activity left, after your body dies?" I asked. "I do now," the angel said. "And you know how a minute in dream time is infinitely longer than a minute in real time?" I continued. He shrugged. "For example. You will wake up and it will be 10:12. You'll go back to sleep and have a long, intricate, beautiful dream and wake up and it'll be 10:13." He agreed, but I don't know if he understood or not. "Well, maybe that's what this is right now. A dream." I finished. Blatantly he said, “what about that girl, Stacy I believe?” He paused a second. “Do you regret not telling her about your feelings?” It caught me off guard. And then I knew my answer. This, of course, made me feel totally shitty. “Like I said, I regret a lot of things.” “How would you like to fulfill some of these regrets? You know, a second chance,” he offered. “How?” I wanted to know! He said, "you ave an interesting theory by the way." And then proceeded with this question: "What are you grateful for Adrian?" “I don't know, lots of things.” “You see,” he began to elucidate, “too many of us wait too long to make a difference. We wait. We wait until something happens instead of making something happen. Sooner or later you'll be out of time. Like you for example. I know it sounds cliché-like, but the only way you won't regret things is if you live your life to the fullest. Treating every day like it's your last.” He paused. “Have you heard that before?” I nod, perplexed as ever. “We take too many things for granted.” The old man sits down on a nearby tombstone. Although he was an angel, he seemed weak and tired. “Make a list. Nothing fancy. Don't worry, you don't have to save the world, or cure cancer. Just make a list.” “A list?” I asked. “A list of things you are grateful for and why you are grateful for those things.” “Why me? Why do I get a second chance?” I was inquisitive. “Everyone gets second chances Adrian.” He looks up for a second, contemplates something. “The whole point of a second chance is to make right something that was wrong. You know that feeling you get in your stomach when you fall fast and unexpected? Those are second chances. You get second chances all the time.” “So alls I have to do is make a list of the things I'm grateful for and I get my life back?” I was still confused, obviously. “Yes and explain why you're grateful.” A silence filled the air and a notepad and pencil appeared on the grass. I sat down on the dewy green grass, alone now. I looked around and my parents were gone, so was the angel. I was thinking about the other morning. I was thinking about the jeans. So I picked up the pencil and wrote, “I'm grateful for the clothes that fit too snug, because it means I have enough to eat.” I then thought about something else and wrote, “I'm grateful for the taxes I pay, because it means I am employed.” I then remembered the drive to work and wrote “I'm grateful for the horrible radio stations, because it means I can hear.” More ideas came, so I wrote them down, too. “I'm grateful for the basement that I have to clean up, because it means I have a home." I blinked. "I'm grateful for the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lot, because it means I can walk.” I then remembered the alarm clock going off madly next to my bed. I smiled as tears filled my eyes and I wrote, “I'm grateful for the alarm clock that goes off in the early morning hours, because it means I am alive.” The next day I woke up and went to work. Tweet
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