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Skinwalker ch.3 (standard:travel stories, 11990 words) [3/5] show all parts | |||
Author: Eutychus | Added: Jan 21 2018 | Views/Reads: 1735/1260 | Part vote: 0.00 (0 votes) |
After a discussion with Minos, judge of those entering Hell, Moe and Jerry are given leave to proceed to the next circle, the circle of the lustful and after a few eye opening discussions, they move on to other circles and other sins and sinners. We are h | |||
Click here to read the first 75 lines of the story life." "Then they are not tossed about by the winds because their hearts were not technically carried away by their lust?" "Arguably so. But as I recall, these are a very unpleasant lot. They are not cruel or vicious or anything like that. They are just full of self-pity, constantly bemoaning what they consider missed opportunities to sin in life, yet another confirmation of their fitness to be here. Their eternity consists of disconsolation for what they never experienced in life and can never experience here." As we passed by the people whom the wind ignored, none of them did so much as look up at us. They were totally self-absorbed to the point of not even noticing we were there, with the exception of one man on the fringe of those "grounded" in the second circle. "Hey... where're you going?" he asked us, waving his arms like we hadn't a clue he was trying to get our attention. "I'm Jerry. This is my friend Moe. We are on our way to the next circle." "Why would you be doing that? I hear that things only get worse the farther down you go." "I can't give you an exact answer to that question but I trust that there is a good reason or I would not be going." "Do either of you understand how this place works? I just don't get the sense of my ending up here. Or any of these others, for that matter. This is where the lustful are punished, but I never acted on any of the thoughts that came to my mind." "Have you ever been oppressed by a thought or words that seemed like a quote from somewhere that you couldn't explain?" Moe asked. "You mean from the Bible. All the time. I can't get away from it. 'But I say unto you, that whoever looks on a woman to lust after her has committed adultery with her already in his heart.' But lust seems so natural. What harm does it really do, especially if there's no actual contact between the one who lusts and the one who is lusted after?" "May I ask what you did in your life?" "I trapped and traded, mostly with the Iroquois until I took a job with the North West Company in '85." "That would be 1785, right?" I wondered. There had been a number of groups that attempted to profit from the westward expansion of the young United States that had begun operations around that portion of the 18th century. "Yes. Sorry, I forget how long I've been here. Simon McTavish," he said and nodded brusquely. "Simon, have you ever given serious thought to what lust is?" Moe asked. "A long-spring beaver trap, because all you need to do is touch it lightly and it instantly grabs the meat of the emotions, bites the bone of the soul and will not let go." "Poetic, I'll give you that, but that's what lust does. What is lust?" Feeling that Moe was asking a question Simon might be unable to answer, I volunteered to offer a perspective. "Simon, you must understand that my sense of what lust is comes chiefly through my knowledge of its opposite, and that would be the love that is found in a godly marriage, which is one of the strongest weapons God gives humans to deal effectively with lust. You see, marriage combines and amplifies the spirits of a husband and wife in a relationship that replaces lust with a healthy desire for only each other. So naturally Satan would seek to counter that by offering a cheap imitation, intimacy without commitment, unfettered passion without consequence, desire freed from any form of control. That imitation of what God intends for human sexuality is what lust is. Lust is a strong desire to pursue and get for oneself something that you currently lacks so that you can enjoy it by yourself and for yourself. In marriage, the focus is on the needs of the other." Moe nodded as if to approve and added that, "God gave us a sexual nature, which He would allow us to fulfill with a mate. If that wasn't His intent, why would He say things like '...rejoice with the wife of your youth. Let her be as the loving fawn and the pleasant roe: let her breasts satisfy you at all times, and be ravished always with her love.'?" "So any premature attempt at intimacy, even if it takes place in the mind, is lust. Sex, as God intended it, is the result of love, not the reason for it or path to it. You see, making love is neither what society constantly portrays it as nor what Satan tempts us to imagine that it is. Society tells us that sex is mostly about seeing someone unclothed, giving and receiving physical sensations, and occasionally results in children. But God made sex to be the deepest consummation of true love that there is. When a man and woman have loved each other so much that they have done the hard work of nurturing a relationship that has resulted in marriage, the marriage bed is the natural location where they can physically and spiritually share all that they are with each other in love, not lust." "This is why I never discussed these matters openly. It is always discussed in terms of men and women, an attraction that never exactly appealed," Simon said. As the look on his face turned to one of sadness and he headed back toward the others who hadn't followed us along I looked at Moe and asked, "Did that discussion do anyone any good?" "It may have given you a new appreciation for your wife, but it did McTavish no good at all. Hell is a place where truth comes through unvarnished. All that Simon was, all that I was, is plain to each of us and we can do nothing about it. We are what we were, are what we are, and are what we always will be, without hope of changing." "Moe, whatever you were, you sure sound as though you've changed." "Just because I understand my situation and am able to see what I refused to see when I was alive does not mean I have changed in any way. I will return to my circle when our journey ends." "So was the fact that Simon never acted upon his particular sort of lust what kept him out of lower hell, those who were violent against nature by foregoing the challenge of the opposite sex?" "Interesting way of putting it. While my culture did not look approvingly upon such liaisons, there is a well-known text that dealt without ambiguity or hypocrisy with all aspects of sexual life, including marriage, adultery, prostitution, group sex, and male and female homosexuality. Just because something is not advertized within a culture does not mean it does not exist." "What was the name of this work?" "The Kama Sutra of Vatsyayana of Nashipur." "Hmm," I said, more in response to additional information regarding Moe's background than the name of the resource. "Did this work address the subject of marriage between members of the same sex?" Moe stopped short and looked at me like I had grown a third arm. "No, merely sex between men and between women. How can there be a marriage between members of the same sex?" "The argument has been made in recent years that if the emotional state of love is held to be the primary grounds for marriage, then the identity of the lovers should be irrelevant. This leads, quite naturally, to the strongest argument for what is referred to as 'gay marriage'. If marriage is only about the emotional bond of love between two people, then it is entirely reasonable to question why such a bond is only recognized between male and female." "Jerry, the emotions felt by the two people involved do not change the ontological status of marriage." "Oh that's right, you studied law." "How does that affect the discussion?" "It explains why you would be using a word like 'ontological.' If I'm not mistaken, ontology concerns itself with the nature of being or the kinds of things that have existence, like man and woman, mother and father and who qualifies for which role and why. Where this subject is concerned, it's probably best that I assert the fact that I hold to the orthodox Christian view of marriage, one man and one woman in a covenant relationship for life. And I'm not so much saying that same sex marriage is wrong, but rather that it is impossible probably for the very ontological reasons you allude to." "What I was suggesting is that calling two men or two women 'married' is the linguistic equivalent to calling one of the women a 'father' or one man a 'mother'." "You are correct, it is an ontological, rather than a moral, distinction, though moral consequences are definitely implied. A man cannot breast-feed, and even if he bottle-feeds the baby, that does not make him a 'mother'. A mother ovulates, gestates and lactates, all abilities which are wholly lacking in males. Also, a man can love his children very much and do many things with them that serve a nurturing function, typically the role of the woman in the parenting partnership. This ability to nurture will not make him into a 'mother.'" "How do those who advocate on behalf of this form of 'marriage' justify their position?" "They attempt to undefine marriage." "Don't you mean redefine?" "No. The argument is that the word ‘marriage' in the early twenty-first century suddenly means something different now than what it has meant for thousands of years." "People must take care when they reason from their passions. The emotion of love is a powerful one, as I'm sure you'd agree. When an emotion is turned into a god, when it is made to be the most important thing there is, it can and will do all the things that any false god will do, including distorting one's view of reality and tempting us to even change our language so that we can pretend reality is other than what it is." "Oh yes, the language has suffered from the changes being forced upon the culture. Moe, if hell is a place of unvarnished truth, then was Simon telling the truth in stating that he never had opportunity to act on his appetites, unconventional as they may have been for his day? I mean, even trappers must make contact with civilization or other trappers from time to time, placing him near people to lust after," I said as the plain before us began to slope drastically uphill after a familiar fashion. The division between circles? If so this would be one illusion we would have to overcome. "I don't believe that a visible object is a requirement for lust as it, like every sin, originates in the heart, not the eyes," Moe said as he continued climbing the incline ahead of us with minimal effort. One of the advantages of having little or no mass, I suppose. Gravity wouldn't pose near the inconvenience for him that it did me. Soon I found myself on hands and knees in an attempt to place more surface area on the ground increasing my drag on the slope. As the grade increased I flattened out on my belly and advanced by crawling up the hill as one might crawl around under a vehicle when changing the oil. I intentionally paid attention to the base of the slope so I wouldn't get discouraged by how far I had yet to go. Though I had been crawling for a long time it looked as though I had only proceeded ten feet up the incline. In frustration I chanced a look uphill to see how far I had yet to go. And when I did, I saw sandals. I looked up at the person wearing them and saw Moe smiling at me. "Are we at the top?" I asked between gulps of air. "Yes. For me down slope is easy. As I said earlier, we are permitted to move deeper into hell. However, should I attempt to go back to the second circle from here, I would encounter resistance comparable to the gravity well of a neutron star." "What? When did you die?" "Near the midpoint of the 20th century." "Alright, the existence of neutron stars was proposed in the 1930s, and the term did not come into the vernacular until the mid-1960s, so where did you hear about them?" I asked as we began our trip down the opposite side of the slope. "I have had discussions with a few writers who wrote something they called 'science fiction'. They explained what happens to a supernova after it collapses and how the star's gravity, mass and density increase as its size decreases. There was a lot of math involved in the discussion, something they referred to as differential equations, but they made their point and drew a comparison between the gravity of a neutron star and the force that makes uphill travel in hell so impossible." I nodded agreeably as my own education into the matter had come from the writings of an author who had written his best science fiction in the 1970s and died just a few years into the decade. But I didn't ask for names because I wasn't sure I wanted to know which of my favorites had ended up in hell. Half way down the slope the rain began. Still winded from the trip up the other side of the divide between circles, I found the shower invigorating. Moe's assessment, however, was altogether different. He was doing everything he could to hide from the rain by pulling his robe tighter and forcing the collar into a hood configuration to cover his bald head. "Is there something about the rain that I've missed?" "It feels like the waters of the Acheron on my skin." "I'm not getting that. Is it possible my body acts as insulation preventing my soul from feeling what you feel?" "Could be," Moe said through clenched teeth. "The third circle is the circle of the gluttonous. Why would a cold rain be an appropriate punishment for gluttons?" "There is more to this circle than just the rain. Because the rain never ends, the floor remains very soft. Not yet liquid but neither can it be called a solid." "Then perhaps it isn't the rain itself but the temperature. The punishment for gluttony is cold?" "Jerry, you earlier mentioned Ohio, which is both a river and state in North America. Am I correct in presuming that you are American?" "Yes." "You have an autumn holiday that involves feasting, don't you?" "Yes, Thanksgiving. The original intent was to celebrate God's provision of food following the harvest at the end of the growing season, but these days it is thought of more as a day off to gorge oneself on turkey and watch football games." "What associations do you make with the holiday?" "Time spent with family, building the first fire of the season in the fireplace, the carving of the turkey twenty minutes out of the oven, pumpkin pie and cup of coffee after the meal." "Those are pretty specific. What general association do you see within those examples?" I thought for a moment and saw what he was getting at. "Warmth. Physical warmth complimenting the emotional warmth of time spent with family." "Very good. I chose your celebration of Thanksgiving because overeating is the most common understanding of gluttony, but natural appetites dominate us in many other ways that do not involve food. Many of these things are good in themselves, but gluttony is a deliberate and determined overindulgence in that good thing. The overindulgent pursuit of any pleasure is gluttony. Would you suppose a person who intentionally overindulges in an activity that could qualify them for this circle might experience a similar sensation of warmth in that act of intemperance?" I thought about every example of gluttony I had ever witnessed or participated in and realized that there was some degree of warm fuzziness connected to them all. An appetite fulfilled had for me always resulted in deep satisfaction and for the one who lives for such satisfaction, the act could become like a narcotic in its addictive ability to give pleasure. "But since the root of every sin is a disaffection for God, food isn't the real problem when it comes to gluttony. True it can be a vehicle that serves to distance a person from God and it accomplishes that task with the lie that it will give more pleasure than God, but that lie can be told by a vast number of things," Moe said as the slope leveled out and I sank ankle deep in ook. The sludge that my feet displaced rose briefly above the water line and I saw bits and pieces of nondescript garbage floating within the muddy suspension. Uncomfortably wet, but not painfully cold. I turned, looked at the slope we had just descended, and was stunned by the vertical cliff face behind me. About fifty feet farther into the mud field stood many oddly proportioned people. Short and wide, tall with legs that seemed too short in relation to their torso, and some who appeared to be sitting in the muck making it impossible to gauge their stature. But because of the steady rain, I wasn't certain of anything I was looking at. When we walked out into the peat bog I discovered that if I stepped on clumps of lifeless-looking vegetation I could keep from getting sucked into the mire beneath. And as I congratulated myself for discovering a way to avoid greater discomfort a distant sound brought a literary memory to mind. A throaty yupping like the bark of a bulldog unable to enunciate clearly around its jowls barely overcame the sound of the rain hitting the surface of the water and I remembered that this circle was also the domain of Cerberus, a three-headed dog who, in classical literature, had guarded the entrance to Hades and was not known for his cheery disposition. "Will Cerberus be a problem?" I asked. "Only if we find him. Don't be fooled by the echo. His barking carries forever across the water. Hell is a big place and we may miss him altogether. But should we happen across him there are ways to placate the beast." "That's right," I said, reached down and grabbed a handful of weeds just above where they disappeared into the muck an inch below the surface of the water. I worked them gently and as they loosened from the floor I pulled up roots surrounded by ten pounds of mud. A sufficient morsel for any hellhound with only one mouth, but Virgil had managed to throw enough dirt into each so that he and Dante had avoided the attention Cerberus gave to the gluttonous. "He's just like us, you know," a voice counterclockwise of me said. Back when we had entered the second circle I noticed we were at the side of the circle that was directly opposite Mino's palace because torches burning outside the structure were visible across the void. I had arbitrarily assigned the palace the twelve o'clock position and because our course toward the next circle had been relatively straight in, the voice was coming from the five o'clock position; hence the 'counterclockwise' reference. "Are you talking about me?" I asked a man standing shin deep in the muck. I had been dutifully avoiding the soupier-looking parts of the path we were following on the off-chance that there was no bottom to the slop, but this character seemed to be on stable footing, though it was ten inches below the surface. "No, I was talking to you about Cerberus," he said and opened his robe to display scar tissue on his right side that made me think he died during the filming of something I saw during Shark Week on Animal Planet years earlier. "Ouch. What happened?" "The left and right head used me in a 'monkey-in-the-middle' kind of contest with the middle head. Wasn't so bad until they let the middle head catch me and he acted like I was his favorite chew toy." "Sorry about that. What did you mean by 'he's just like us'?" "Well, this is the circle of the gluttonous and I am not the only person here with scars like these. Cerberus is a glutton as well, gorging himself on the flesh of those trapped here." "I don't know that Cerberus can strictly be called a glutton. The non-human residents of hell have always seemed to me to be pictures of something else. Cerberus, for example, I always associated with unrestrained appetite. There is no rhyme or reason to how he goes about satisfying that appetite, since he will be as happy with a mouthful of dirt as a mouthful of flesh," Moe said. "And speaking of appetites, what was yours?" I asked our new acquaintance. "You don't look like the typical glutton of my imagination." "I tried to convince myself for a long time that I was different. I was disciplined. I would never allow my fondness for new and different foods to turn me into one of those out of control gastronomes you see all over this circle. I may have eaten well in life but I worked hard to maintain a respectable weight. P90X, Ten Minute Trainer, Hip Hop Abs... I did them all and to good effect. The proteins I consumed became muscle, not fat." "Moe, how did you define gluttony?" "A deliberate and determined overindulgence in a good thing." "And I overindulged in both food and fitness, willfully and knowingly. I puzzled for a long time regarding why overindulgence can send you to hell and finally gave up. There must be something innately sinful in any act of excess." "I don't know that any one specific sin can be a reason for ending up in hell. Specific sins are more like symptoms pointing toward a general condition that makes you more fit for hell than heaven," I said, noticing that this guy, Simon and Lena acted as though their sin of choice was the reason they were in hell. And Charon had all but plainly stated why they were here during his initial address to the damned on his ferry. "If you think about it, there is a spiritual element to gluttony that mirrors the devotion a religious person gives to God," Moe said with a reflective look. "I think we could argue that gluttony is not merely a lack of will power, but that it is religious in nature as it is service to, devotion toward, and worship of the pleasure of food instead of the God Who gave it. This might, in a sense, make gluttony a form of idolatry." "And idolatry is what again?" "Idolatry is giving some created thing the place in your heart that should belong to God alone. And the more I think about your picture, Moe, the more the parallels become obvious. God made various covenants with His people throughout their history with Him that He would be their God if they would do certain things, like keep His commandments. The glutton makes a covenant with food, fitness, possessions, whatever, to be his source of comfort and security. He becomes his own way of salvation as well. Eating becomes a sacrament, exercise a means of receiving grace, acquiring more things an act of sacrifice on the altar of contentment. And in so doing, he essentially tells God that there is already something in his life he views as more valuable than God." "All right, I get it," the fittest looking glutton I had ever met said as he turned away dismissively. He was finished talking and seemed, like Simon, content to wallow in his own misery. As he attempted to pull one leg free of the mire he miscalculated how his center of gravity was changing, pitched forward and wound up on his knees, thigh and elbow deep in cold mud. I offered a hand but he made it plain he could deal with the situation on his own. So we left him to his efforts and when I looked back at him some time later he was still pushing and pulling at the ground trying to gain some purchase over the mud. "Remind you of anything?" Moe asked as he pressed hard against the rain in the direction of the next circle. "Yes. One year I tried to help my wife mix up the pumpkin cookies she makes for Christmas and did it by hand, thinking it would be more efficient than with a wooden spoon. I struggled for a good ten minutes trying to get it off my hands once the mixing was finished." "I take it you didn't grow up on a farm." "No, I've lived in suburbs my whole life." "Then never mind." Though the temperature of the rain didn't cause me the pain it caused Moe, I was growing tired of the fact of the rain. Shoving my hands in my pockets I steeled myself against the eternal downpour and determined to get through this circle as quickly as possible. This was getting depressingly old. In the process of doubling my resolve, fingers brushed across the screen of the phone in my pocket and inadvertently activated the media player. Relaxing Stanton Lanier piano chords moved across the water and echoed back. Heads snapped up from the chests they had dropped against looking all around in search of a source. As I struggled to close the player, Moe looked at me and shook his head. "Sorry. There isn't a rule against music in hell, is there?" "Doubtful, but a moment of pleasure will counterpoint an eternity of hell, meaning any joy derived from hearing the tune will be viewed with regret a thousand years hence." A large form ahead of us pointed at me and said, "That was you. What do you have there, a player or a phone?" "iPhone 8c. Does everything but make a phone call. Not that I would expect to get a signal here anyway," I said and without a second thought checked for voice and emails. And no, I had received neither. "I have this urge to take the thing from you and see what's happening in the world, but what does it matter?" "But there's no signal." "News was downloaded automatically to my phone. Probably does to yours as well. You've got a widget that constantly updates headlines." I tossed him the phone and as he attempted to use it a look of frustration washed over his face as he remembered that... "...the screen requires galvanic skin responses to be navigated. God has quite the sense of humor." "How's that?" "He sends a Smartphone to hell that I, the consummate news junkie, am unable to operate." In the absence of a news app he chose to grill me on recent events. Who was the president, what were her politics, which talk radio personalities were popular? How useful could any of that be in hell? And yet these were his primary concerns. I finally shook my head and ran to catch up with Moe. "What was all that about?" Moe wondered as I splashed up behind him. "Just more proof that not all forms of gluttony involve food," I said and noticed that I had adjusted the volume of my voice to compensate for the background noise. As we crossed the mud field we had drifted counterclockwise following the dead vegetation seeking out good footing. The farther we drifted, the louder the noise had become and the heavier the rain fell. The background noise reminded me of something and after a few seconds I pinpointed the memory. Elsbeth and I had honeymooned near Niagara Falls and this was reminiscent of the sound of the falls from Goat Island, the piece of land mid-river that separated the American and Canadian falls. Presuming a nearby source for the sound, I scanned the "sky" in an attempt to locate it. "What are you looking at?" Moe asked when he realized that I was no longer right on his heels. "That," I said and pointed to what I could only describe as a geyser issuing horizontally out of the face of the cliff we had dropped down from the second circle. "And I'll bet the reason the rain feels so cold is because it is water from the Acheron. If I recall correctly, the Acheron moves underground at some point and re-emerges as a spring just above a marsh a couple of circles from here." "And passes a fistula in the cliff, no doubt, some of it escaping there." "Yes, and it appears there is sufficient pressure behind the flow to push it well beyond the inner boundary of this circle. Isn't there a burning city a few circles down?" "It is called Dis, and yes, the walls glow red and are very hot." "Which means there is hot air rising above the city all the time that probably acts like the propellant in an aerosol can and sends the water upward only to fall as an eternal rain on this circle." Another hundred yards down the path I noticed that we were no longer splashing through water, though the mud hadn't decided to dry out as a result. And as we reached the incline I had come to expect between circles, the slope was not nearly so drastic as the last circle's. Of course it didn't need to be as the mud served to add the degree of difficulty that had been lost by the reduction in the grade. As Moe stood on the ridge at the edge of the drop to the next circle surveying the next phase of our journey, I continued to make a two steps forward- one step back kind of progress. When I was almost able to see over the crest I heard what sounded like a bullwhip cracking multiple times in rapid succession. I suddenly found myself somewhat hesitant to proceed. "You are a mess," Moe said and then looked back at the scene playing out below us. Near the base of the cliff walked a line of people rolling and pushing (mostly pushing) large somewhat round objects ahead of themselves. Directly beneath where we stood the line turned right and headed away from the cliff toward the next circle. Ten feet to the left was another line headed in the opposite direction coming from the rim and then turning to walk parallel with the cliff face away from the first line. This group was also pushing large objects. I followed Moe along a narrow ledge that, with some nervousness on my part, led us to the base of the cliff. Close enough to reach out and touch any of the people in line pushing their burden, I was somewhat surprised by the faded opulence their attire bore witness to. Immediately in front of me was a woman in an off-white dress with a reticella lace collar ruff like the painting of Britain's Elizabeth I that had graced the cover of my Norton Anthology of English Literature in college. And from the condition of the dress, I could imagine her having been wearing it since the time of Elizabeth I's reign. Behind her was a man wearing an embroidered black jerkin with long skirts over a white satin doublet and matching padded hose. I saw every type of tuxedo and evening gown styles that spoke Fiorucci, Dior and Bulgari. When we came to the point where the two lines met and one turned out toward the next circle while the other turned to parallel the cliff face, the styles changed dramatically. The other line of people wore clothing of Quaker-like simplicity with no concern for style. And the tension between the two groups where they walked past each other like two teams following an athletic contest was conspicuous. Those dressed to the nines glared with disapproval at the others while those dressed modestly looked suspicious of the lavishly clad. Farther from the cliff I heard insults traded and curses spoken, like a jousting match of contempt. Then, as if on cue, both lines changed the direction of flow and heaved their burden at those in the line opposite. The skirmish was quick, loud, and probably the reason for the sound I had interpreted to be a bullwhip earlier. When someone managed to move their boulder to a position where it would absorb the force of the boulder coming their way, there was a loud *crack* much like the miniature sonic boom created when the end of the bullwhip reaches full speed and is drawn quickly back. And at the point of contact I noticed several clouds of sparkling light, like glitter falling to the ground where the stones had struck. Hmm... As quickly as the melee began, it was over, and the greatest concern following was relocating the correct boulder. Once proper ownership was established the line continued on. "There would be no reason for this if you weren't such hoarders," the man in the jerkin said to the woman immediately across from him. "Consider all the good you might have done with your money that was left undone because of your selfishness." "And what was the good you were doing when you had someone tailor that, Marcel?" she replied and moved on. He turned to his stone and caught me staring. "Well?" I asked and shrugged. "My sister. She simply resents the fact that fortune and title passed to me. When her husband died she overcompensated for my obvious excess in life by clinging to every farthing she received upon his death and lived a miserable existence for the rest of hers on earth." "Hoarders and wasters," Moe said as we walked away from the cliff. "Always choosing to do the wrong thing with the resources God gave them." "So the hoarders love to receive but they don't like to give. And the wasters use what they have, but only on themselves." "Yes, not at all like I have discovered such blessings were intended to be used. When God blessed someone it was generally so they could bless others." "Excellent observation. And were it not for God's grace I'm sure there would be a lot of hoarding Christ-followers pushing rocks. Come to think of it you'd see some in line with the wasters as well." "I'm not sure I get what you mean," Moe said above the sounds of effort being made by people moving their burdens. "It's sad to say but I see a good deal of hoarding and wasting in the Church, and much of the time it is the same folks involved in both activities. They take what they can get from God but they don't give back much. They soak up the worship and teaching on Sunday mornings, attend their small groups, study their Bibles, and then never share what they learn with others. They hoard what has been given to them and then waste it by not sharing with those who so desperately need it." "Then faith does not translate into action?" "Sometimes the answer can be no, but that is not an indictment of the One who purchased salvation and works sanctification because He never forces us into action. He works with us to encourage us to join in the work He is doing of our own accord. And when He gets us to the point that we are asking not 'How much can I get?' but 'How much can I give?', we are getting close to where He has wanted us to be all along." "'Whoever tries to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will save it'?" Moe asked. "Yes. And that sentiment isn't even necessarily talking about money. It could be a possession. It could be time. It could be knowledge. It could be love and attention," I said and thought I noticed something beyond the line of wasters to our left. "Jerry, what do you think you're doing?" Moe asked with some alarm when I ducked between two wasters and entered the space between the lines. "I just need to know something," I said and dropped to my knees. I felt around, found what I was looking for and grabbed a handful. The curses were coming more frequently across the space between the lines so I knew there wasn't much time before tempers exploded again and rocks flew. As the fervor of the accusations increased I smiled, imagining a square dance where every time two partners passed they shouted at each other, "Why are you so uncoordinated?" "Do you have any idea how foolish that was? Those are real boulders and their mass is as real as yours." "Some things are worth the risk," I said and opened my hand to display a small pile of grainy gray dust. "What is this?" "I noticed something when the rocks struck the last time they went at each other. A small bit of the rocks pulverized where they came in contact. I figured that with tens of thousands of impacts over hundreds of years there would be a collection of the fragments about midway between the lines." "And this is important?" "Only to as big a fan of irony as myself," I said as I spread the pile out in my hand so I could examine a single piece of crushed boulder. "What do you hope to learn?" "Something about the boulders. Do you know what a geode is?" "Some kind of geological formation?" "Yes. Geodes are hollow, roughly spherical masses of minerals that form around gas bubbles in volcanic rocks and before they are cracked open look a lot like the boulders these people are pushing around. Geodes commonly have a quartz shell lined internally by various crystals like amethyst, jasper, agate and quartz. Quartz is formed from silicon and raw silicon tends to come in the shape of a tetrahedron, which is a pyramid with a total of four sides. But these resemble cubes, which is more like the configuration of carbon. Any idea what other crystalline geological structures form from carbon under great heat and pressure like that found in the upper mantle of the earth where these geodes likely formed?" Moe thought for a moment, his eyes grew wide and he slapped a hand over his mouth to muffle the laughter. "Do you think they have any clue?" "There was a mad scramble to recover their very own rocks after the last battle. I expect the same thing will happen after this one," I said over the background noise of boulders clinking like beer steins during Oktoberfest. "So this battle could be as much about getting at what lines their geode as it is a philosophical dispute," Moe mused. "And what better way to keep the greedy in their place than with a boulder that promises all they ever desired?" I asked and was surprised that it appeared we were already approaching the next circle because we had reached the point where the lines were again turning to move parallel with the cliff. I had mistakenly presumed that this turn would have indicated the end of the fourth circle. It was merely the end of one round of walkers. Slightly beyond the line of hoarders was another line of people walking in a much tighter formation. They appeared to be bound together by some sort of ribbon that acted like industrial strength spider webbing. The upper two thirds of their bodies were engulfed in the white stuff that bound them together and afforded them limited movement above the waist. "What is this, some different category of hoarder and waster?" I asked as we approached and saw that we were again where two lines were meeting. "Yes," Moe said and then let loose with what might well have been a string of profanities in an unfamiliar language while hopping on one foot. I looked at the ground and noticed the source of Moe's dance. Evidently he had kicked or stepped on a vicious looking metal dome about the size of a grapefruit adorned with needle-like spikes. I looked for a way to pick the thing up without spilling blood and as I was examining the object a man in a stovepipe hat pushed against his entanglement and offered advice. "There's no good way to do it. If you hesitate they'll get the upper hand," he said, reached down and grabbed the item. He did a good job of hiding the fact of the pain by not screaming but his face told another story. It turned out the gentleman was a Populist politician who had advocated for many of the progressive reforms that had inspired the folks who had participated in the Haymarket Square strike in the 1870s. Evidently some of his opponents at that event were in the opposite line and as he fought with the white ribbon that kept him from being able to throw the object with any accuracy his bloodied hands turned the ribbon crimson. "A Morningstar," I said to Moe as we moved on. "What is that?" "The things they are throwing at each other. In the Middle Ages if you found one at the end of a club, it was called a mace. If at either end of a length of chain, it was called a flail. An apt weapon for politicians, a very special breed of both hoarder and waster. They spent all their time in life trying to bloody the opposition, ended up with figurative blood on their hands, and find themselves bound by tape that has been colored red by their own blood." "Why are you smiling?" I declined to explain while I considered the propensity of politicians from my own day hoarding a particular point of view and guarding it with such diligence that they were incapable of seeing any merit in the position of those on the opposite side of the aisle. Then they could waste opportunities, resources, and time with the intensity of a wildfire during a drought. I apologized for cutting through the line but no one really seemed to care. Once we were clear of the rings of walkers we were able to concentrate on reaching the next circle, which was not much farther beyond the line of politicians. "Things will seem more dangerous in the coming circles, but the sounds will be more bluster than cause for concern," Moe said. "And some entities are going to respond in odd ways to you, but there will really be nothing they can do about the One that travels with you other than react to Him as they are permitted." "You are referring to someone other than yourself." "Yes. You may recall hearing this place referred to as 'outer darkness'. That was not just a metaphor. You are able to see clearly in hell because you carry a Light with you. Your eyes would otherwise fail you and you would be groping around in pitch black darkness." "I can hear you capitalizing nouns that wouldn't normally receive that emphasis. Are you referring to the in-dwelling Presence that was promised to all believers?" He nodded and pointed to my hand. I took a moment to ponder the soft iridescence I had noticed back in the vestibule. Visible evidence of the Holy Spirit? Why had I never...but then, the reality I found myself in played by different rules of physics, as Moe had already mentioned. Was this simply how things appeared when the veil was removed? The thought of the Helper Jesus had talked about in the upper room being with me in a spiritual sense, some ethereal presence that hovered nearby acting as my conscience at appropriate moments of teachability, was for some reason a little easier to handle than a presence that had somehow bonded with me on the cellular level. And that discomfort had more to do with me than with the One who walks alongside me. I found myself thinking about every instance of sin in the recent past, and for some reason the recollection was particularly acute at the moment. It was like quickly flipping through a circular rolodex while being able to absorb every detail from each card. The notion that one member of the Trinity had been physically (?) present for each one of them caused my stomach to churn. As we approached what appeared to be another drop off, I realized the rise in grade that I had expected was growing less extreme with each circle we advanced through. I attempted to get my bearings by locating the torch that was burning outside Mino's palace but discovered that we had moved too far down to see above the rims of earlier circles. I fought down an unexpected panic stemming from having lost my one point of reference. Not that the torch could have done me any real good, but as long as I knew where it was I was relatively certain of where I was. Now I didn't know how far we had wandered off our straight-in course. Odd the way the loss of that one point of certainty affected me. I felt like I had been dropped alone in the middle of the ocean on a night heavy with clouds. The memory of Carl Sagan waxing eloquent about the condition of humanity on the "pale blue dot" suddenly seemed more depressing than inspiring. But the fact of the afterglow I bore served as a reminder that not only was I not lost in the vastness of anything, but that I carried the only source of comfort that could possibly matter with me. And that assurance would come in handy when crossing the remaining circles. A short distance clockwise of us I saw a vertical flow of water spilling over the edge of the cliff. That would indicate the Acheron resurfaced on the outer rim of this circle and then fell to the next. There was a chunk of flotsam in the river between where the water percolated up out of the ground and the edge of the cliff that took much longer than the current would have indicated it should have taken to reach the brink of the falls. And when it did, it fell much slower than it had any right to. Then, about a third of the way down the waterfall, the flow fanned out to ten times the width of the flow over the edge, looking very much like a cloud mid-way down the cliff. I pointed it out to Moe who seemed less than curious. "How can this not seem significant? I mean, there must be a reason for the way the water is falling." "Jerry, from my perspective, things simply are what they are. There may be a sound and reasonable explanation for why the waters do not fall straight down, but in the face of an eternity in hell, it really doesn't matter." I agreed that he was probably right but I wanted to know, so I walked in the direction of the falls without my guide. I located a rock and slipped it into my pocket. When I got maybe ten yards from the falls I dropped it over the edge and it fell just as slowly as the junk in the river had fallen. When it reached the point where the water fanned out it began a wide horizontal arc whose apogee reached beyond the falls, out into the void, well beyond where Moe was standing and then back to its starting point. It continued that spiral descent with the diameter of each orbit noticeably smaller than the last until it reached the bottom of the cloud, at which point it fell like the warhead of a light anti-tank weapon leaving its launcher until it disappeared into the layer of mist that hid the river from our direct view. Interesting. "Are you finished?" Moe asked. "Yes and I feel better about our journey as a result." It was clear from the tone of his voice that he didn't really want to know the answer to his question when he asked, "Why?" "I don't suppose you know what a Lagrange point is..." "If I say no, you will still explain to me what you feel you've discovered, won't you?" "Yes. There are five locations around a planet's orbit where the gravitational forces of the Sun and that planet interact to create a point of equilibrium between those two gravity sources. These locations are known as Lagrange points, named for the 18th century Italian astronomer and mathematician who worked out the equations that explained their operation. Since you died before we started putting objects in orbit around the Earth, this will probably sound rather foreign to you." "I've heard about things being placed outside the atmosphere and the cost involved from a man named Bill Proxmire and could never understand why the money wasn't used for better purposes." "I think it's a combination of one-upmanship and attempting to answer the question 'can it be done?' Can we send men into space and return them safely to Earth? Can we go to the moon? Can we..." "I see," Moe said sadly . "I was a space kid in the 1960s. At one time I knew the names of every astronaut in the space program, which missions they had flown, the particulars of each mission, and what each mission patch looked like beginning with Gemini 3 right up through Apollo 17. Though I was not an engineer, military pilot, or flight controller in mission control, I was able to enter into that world to a very minor yet real way based on associations I made with the space program in part by educating myself and in part by using my imagination. I could understand that going into space must be a wonderful experience even though I was never likely to do so myself because of someone else's...in my case Gene Cernan... who gave a talk at my school regarding the Apollo 10 mission, retelling his experience. But now that I've lived several more decades, I think that for all the excitement generated by the space program, we might have made better use of the resources it consumed." "Alright, I'm interested now," Moe said, though I doubted it. Sometimes I got the feeling that he was merely tolerating my observations. "Okay, but first a little bit about orbital mechanics. The closer an object is to the Sun, the faster it will move. For example, Mercury makes a complete trip around the sun in three months, Venus in seven. So, any object going around the Sun in an orbit smaller than Earth's will soon overtake the planet. However, there's a loophole: if the object, say a satellite, is placed directly between the Sun and Earth, Earth's gravity pulls it in the opposite direction and cancels some of the Sun's pull. With a weaker pull towards the Sun, the satellite needs less speed to maintain its orbit, so it can slow down. If the distance is just right the spacecraft will travel slowly enough to keep its position between the Sun and the Earth. There are similar points on the night side of the planet and ninety-three million miles directly opposite the sun, but these positions are only moderately stable. The SOHO solar observatory has to fire thrusters on a consistent basis to keep it at L1, the Lagrange point between the Earth and the sun. "For my purposes, the important Lagrange points are L4 and L5. These lie at points sixty degrees ahead of and behind Earth in its orbit, close to that orbit. Unlike the other Lagrange points, L4 and L5 are reliably stable. An object placed at this point is kind of like a ball placed in a large bowl. It may wander around the bottom of the bowl, but it will never drift very far in any direction and if it does drift will orbit around that Lagrange point until it returns to dead center of that point. "This discussion has bearing here because when I dropped a rock over the edge it behaved like an object close to either L4 or L5, attempting to come back to the center of its LaGrange point as it fell. I'm suggesting that there is something like two competing gravity fields that are holding us near their midpoint, in a sense guiding us on our journey. I have noticed an uncomfortable sensation kind of like vertigo whenever I move away from the direction we are going. Felt it most strongly when I wandered over toward the falls," I said and walked toward the edge of the cliff. If we were indeed being lead on our journey, the path to follow would be near the midpoint of the competing gravity fields, which would be where the rock had come closest to the cliff. "Let me reiterate that it doesn't make any difference in the face of eternity. However, your feeling of dizziness is in keeping with Dante's experience. He swooned several times early on in his journey. Maybe his loss of equilibrium was caused by wandering from his intended path. Also, whenever an option presented itself to Dante and Virgil, they turned left. I always presumed the path leading deeper into hell was to the left when a choice was available because of the status the left has always had compared to the right. Even in Virgil's Aeneid the path to the left led hell-ward while the one to the right led toward heaven. And Ecclesiastes states that 'A wise man's heart is at his right hand; but a fool's heart at his left'. Maybe they were being led on their journey as well." "You might be onto something there," I said and followed him along the ledge that led downhill and to the left. He moved downward with what seemed a fair amount of confidence while I inched my way along, clinging desperately to the wall. Two thirds of the way down the path I paused to look back at the cloud and was stunned to see water falling from above into it but nothing leaving the cloud. Then, an instant before I asked my guide a pertinent question, a slug of water fell from the cloud with far greater force than Earth's gravity should have allowed. "It churns up the river below as it does that and is the reason the river is shrouded in mist," Moe said. "Aerosolization. I had presumed the cloud was simply fine water droplets being drawn away from the main mass of the falling river by the gravity forces at work, but now it looks like something else is happening in the cloud. It's almost behaving like a capacitor of motion, absorbing the force of the water falling from above until it reaches a point of discharge and then releases the water and the collected momentum with the force of Jupiter's gravity." "Perhaps," Moe said, turned and was swallowed up by the mist rising from the river. I followed him down into the cool dampness and presently arrived at a four foot wide quay of sorts ten feet above a very angry river. Again memories returned to my honeymoon, specifically the white water river walk along the Niagara Rapids just downstream from the falls (though here the water was a brackish brown). There was a similar roar from the water near the cliff, but a hundred feet out from the quay the waters stilled with surprising suddenness at a point where reeds, rushes and arms (?) began protruding from the surface of the water. Soon another sound became audible above the roar of the river and that was the angry shouting of people. At the base of the quay, half in and half out of the water, pairs and groups of people attacked one another with maniacal severity. Just downstream of the conflict I noticed that the water foamed with a red-ish tint, not black like the rest of the river. Whatever the disagreement, it was sufficient to justify drawing blood. Then I remembered where we were. "The wrathful, no doubt," I remarked to Moe who had crouched down to look out across the water below the level of the mist. "Yes and beyond the river Styx, the vast marsh Styx, the place of the sullen." "Are you looking for anything in particular?" "I'm looking at a tower on the wall of the city. There are two torches burning. A signal has been sent. We are expected." "Signal? To whom?" "Phlegyas. According to the traditional version of the story, he was the tyrannical king of Lapithae whose daughter was raped by the Greek god Apollo and in justifiable wrath burned down the temple of Apollo in Delphi. Naturally Apollo killed him for his indiscretion and he has ever since ferried those bound for lower hell across the circle devoted to those who allowed anger to be the defining trait in their life. But in your approach that relies on revelation over mythology, a special creation who not only transports the damned but who also personifies wrath, as the Greek back-story would suggest." "Moe, I only discount the mythology angle insofar as you are using the modern interpretation of the word, in which the subject of discussion is treated like a fairy tale, a made up story, something with no anchor points in reality." "Ah, you have a deeper understanding of language than I would have expected." "Yes, mythology, properly applied, refers to a common or shared historical experience. So in this sense, all of scripture and then the history of the Church could be referred to as a mythology, the shared historical experience of the entire family of believers from Adam to myself and to all future believers. It has always galled me when people would say with contempt that I 'believe in a myth' when those words are in fact an affirmation of the historicity of that faith. But that's just..." I began and then stopped when something well into the marsh caught my attention. Whatever it was was moving very fast, forcing a plume of water into the air ahead of itself. "Moe, do you see that?" "Phlegyas' ferry. Though his function is similar to Charon's, his personality is not. As I said, he is the personification of wrath, anger, so you would be well advised to not speak with him if you can help it. He has seen me before and will not be happy that I am here again. And he was none too happy to give Dante passage, so the fact that your heart is still beating will not endear you to him in the least." The boat approached silently but the stealth only lasted until it made shore. It came to rest atop three of the people struggling together at the water's edge. There was no fear in those beneath the boat like the attitude of the people I rode with in Charon's ferry. Curses and rage flowed freely from the tongues of the apoplectic under the boat. Phlegyas, an ancient figure in a fine robe and modest gold crown, whose proportions were similar to Charon's, leaped to the front of his boat, planted a foot in the chest of a man on the shore, used him unsuccessfully as a springboard (I heard ribs crack), yet leaped halfway up the wall and pulled himself up to our level with an arthritic hand that had found a grip just over the edge of the quay. In one fluid motion he was on his feet, grasped Moe's robe and had pinned him to the cliff behind us, Moe's feet dangling four feet in the air. "I know you. What are you doing here? Do you think I go to all the trouble of dragging your shadow to the other side of the swamp just to have to do it again someday? It's a one way trip to the lowlands, and you'll not be coming this way again. I'll make sure of that. And this...what is this crap?" Phlegyas asked after briefly regarding me with an evil eye. "There are regulations, rules against this sort of thing. He shouldn't have been permitted across the Acheron let alone get this close to Dis. And you'll not be riding in my boat. This is not Charon's tub! You'll swamp me for sure. Do you have any idea the paperwork that is involved in requisitioning a new boat? And that's just for placing the order. Then there will be favors that will be expected, bribes will have to be negotiated... Do I look like I have time for all that? You're staying right here!" I could almost feel my eyebrows curling from his rancid breath. Another place another time, he'd have made a fine drill instructor. But I was not enjoying the prospect of my journey ending here and I looked Moe's direction to get a sense of what thoughts might be brewing. "We have the proper clearance," Moe said and pulled something from within his robe. Phlegyas snatched it from his hand and examined the worn looking paper for a long time. "I can't make out a thing. Whose signature is this?" "Jerry, can you give us a hand over here?" "That's better," Phlegyas said when I moved close enough for an extended hand to illuminate the document. But once he realized what the light source was, he lost all interest in whatever document Moe had produced. He grasped my hand and held it to his face, flipping it over and back, nearly dislocating my shoulder with the first twist. "You do not have the stench of death about you. In fact you are aglow with life." A thought crossed my mind but I directed my words at Moe, trusting that he would know if my thought was appropriate to the situation. "Psalm 139?" Moe nodded and said, " 'Where could I go from your Spirit? Or where could I flee from your presence? If I ascend up into heaven, you are there. If I make my bed in Sheol, behold, you are there!'" "I know what the glow portends. I know what he is. I suppose now I must allow you passage. You know you will put me behind schedule. I will not be able to make the return trip with my usual dispatch," he said. As his shoulders slumped he turned and jumped off the quay. The next sound seemed to indicate that he had landed on someone. I looked down at the fifteen foot long flat bottomed boat and saw Phlegyas sitting dejectedly by what looked like a tiller. "Kind of looks like he personifies sullenness as well as wrath. So what is this document you were showing him?" "Just a piece of cloth I picked up somewhere that has the look and feel of parchment. The point of that was to engage him until he noticed your glow. We had to let him figure it out on his own or he would have been consumed with rage that we had tried to force him into a course of action and we'd have been left here to negotiate the Styx on our own," Moe said and dropped lightly down to the water's edge. I grabbed the handhold Phlegyas had used and lowered myself over the edge, which got me four feet above the river. I dropped down, landed with a thud, which drew the attention of the wrathful souls nearby, and climbed into the ferry. "Push us off, but sit in the center seat," Phlegyas ordered before I could get both feet in the boat. I shoved much harder than was necessary and nearly ended up face down in the black water before I hopped into the ferry and got in the seat. As I settled in, I saw why the return trip would take so much longer. Phlegyas and Moe had not caused any additional displacement of the boat in the river, but I had caused it to ride to within an inch of swamping the craft. As soon as the old man had oriented the boat back in the direction of the tower he stooped down, grabbed something and turned to me. "You can use this to bail out the water that washes in. I insist you take responsibility for a problem you will cause," he said and handed me an off-white bowl that was too oversized to fit comfortably in the palm of my hand. I studied the bowl inside and out, dropped it and shot a look at our pilot. "Problem?" Phlegyas asked with a smirk. "This used to be someone's skull." "So it was," he said as he repositioned a pole in an ornament that resembled a fòrcola, the oar lock at the stern of a Venetian gondola. What I had taken for a tiller was really an oar that Phlegyas moved quickly back and forth, rolling clock and counterclockwise as he did so, an action that resulted in forward motion. But we were moving at a snail's pace compared to his speed on the trip to this side of the swamp, meaning that he must have been a blur of motion when he was moving at full speed. He took some time to get us away from the falls, into calmer waters I suppose. As he did I observed the near shore and saw that the wrathful moved like the river, heaving, cresting and falling, only it was the individually wrathful rising up against, exploding at and then pouncing upon other wrathful souls. I shook my head at the senselessness of the exercise and it seemed that our pilot took note of my attitude. "You take offense at those in this circle?" he asked as he stopped his sculling and the ferry began to slow. "Not offense. I just don't understand why they persist, why they can't let it go." "Because it is what and who they are. I have a surprising amount of insight into this topic, if you don't mind me sharing," he offered as five gallons of foul black water slopped over the bow. I took to my task of bailing, and as I did Phlegyas continued to wax eloquent on a subject he seemed all too familiar with. "There is a sense in which anger might be considered the deadliest of sins. At its heart it destroys relationship with and trust in another. Particularly harmful to those in family relationships such as that thing you believing types refer to as the church," he began. "Yes, but there are also times when anger is the most appropriate reaction to a situation," Moe said. 88 Tweet
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